Wednesday, 29 December 2010

Retract

Pull away your feeling from my heart
like steel magnolias lost in bloom.
Scent but a whisper away, lost and
confused. Sniff... place directly
beneath your nostril, inhale this
waste. Bring fourth this vile
taste.. vomit... choke.. don't laugh
it is not a joke. I hate the way
I'm feeling, this dark n confused
picture.. I am not and have never
been amused. Do I make myself
clear. Stand still when I am
talking to you. Stop swaying.
How many drinks have you sunk?
I despise you, take hold of
yourself.. thy retched child.
And into the darkness of
night like a lost sacrificial
lamb you wondered off into
the fog.. I held out my heart,
and you...were ..........gone.
This pain I feel is like
nothing I have felt before.
I am dead without your love,
come re-open my door, return.
Throw wide your grasp, kiss
and with untold abundance..
I will never fall ill of you.
Come.... hold, entrust..

Sunday, 26 December 2010

Time

Mmmmmmmmmmm........
touch me in the dark
let me feel your
pulse.. race, run,
my fingers through
your hair, trace..
place my fingers...
lips apart..tongue
lace..your heart
around..grip tight.
Fumble, fabric..rip.
Sit..lie down, arms
wrapped around
your waist..pull
zipper, with added
hast..ripper.
Digits fight,
clumsy, crack
knuckles..eyes
wide shut..
flesh in abundance
sweat, perspiration
tickles..trickle.
Suck .. fumble tongue
lick..slide..legs
wide...swollen
clit.. pubic
jungle..aroma
excite, turn
close the door
turn off the
light. Shuffle,
fumble..rub..
Mmmmmmmm..
sexual delight.

Friday, 24 December 2010

H*A*P*P*Y ~ C*H*R*I*S*T*M*A*S

TO YOU ALL


XOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX

Wednesday, 22 December 2010

L O V E

For all that we have,
for all that we love
for all that we have
and always will, love.
For you and for me,
for her and for him,
for the old and for
the young, will all
and yes..Carols sung.
For the memories we
hold, for the one's
we have lost, we
shall and forever
never forget. For
all that this
world brings,
for all that god
delivers I will
will my everything
love you. For all
that I have
I now give to you
with all of my
yesterdays...
I offer you all
your tomorrows.

Tuesday, 21 December 2010

Day of Truth

Give me strength for all
that I am going through.
For every Tom Dick n Harry
who have said 'don't panic
it'll be alright.'You try
it from my side of there..
you see if I don't give
a fuck, I don't actually
care' !!!!!!!!!!
When some one comes along
from his centrally heated
posh office some where
up with the gods... you
want to reach out and
scream, scratch their
fuckin eyes out. They
produce these letters,
'sorry for the upset!'
Yeah for sure.. and then
some, well to cut a long
story short, today was
the day we found out
who gets what, a pat
on the back... listen
for the spilt tears,
the no turning back.
I was first in, sticky
eye as well, ointment's
kinda workin.. shitty
sore and so blurd!!
I had me some back up,
I took this nice young
man in with me, from
the Prison union..
just for a chat, listen
try to take it all in,
hopefully to work
things out. I went in
first with an open mind
thinkin it was totally
out of my hand. Today
I dealt a good hand,
today I almost cried,
not because I lost
my job but because
I actually survived.
I couldn't believe
what they were tellin
me.. I asked them twice
to repeat what they'd
said, they smiled, I
smiled too.. I'm
happy as Larry, I
shook their hands
still fightin back
the tears.. today
banished all my
fears. I will
continue my lovely
job, and stay
where I am.
My Christmas
has come early,
I'm so fricken
GLAD !!! ;)

Indi over n out.

Saturday, 18 December 2010

WTF ?


A couple of weeks ago when the British weather people announced we were to get some white stuff IE: snow, we all thought 'yeah right!' But over night the clouds did puke
a shit load of snow upon our frozen shitty ground. Anyway I was told once that should you ever take a photo and see..witness a strange vision through or over it, that wasn't there when your finger hit the button, this one was taken on the way to work one frozen morning, it wasn't snowing, it certainly wasn't raining and no way was there any flying bugs around. I can't explain what came out on this photo taken with my mobile phone... for those of you i the USA 'cell' phones. But like I said earlier, apparently this white slice of colour/light is a that of a Phantom. Ghost...
I do actually believe in this phenomena. I have taken other photos in the dark and with the same evidence, unexplained evidence... I'm not in the slightest bit bothered or scared... if anything I'm intrigued.. interested... marvelled..
So there you have it, snow .... infested with Alien life? Ghosts.... Boo ! ;)))))

Wednesday, 15 December 2010

Guardian Angel

Guardian angel,
come show me
your face.. I
found this
white feather
on Monday..so
I thought..
time for some
good luck!!
I believe in
this stuff,
so I bent
down and
picked it
up. I told
a few folk
who took it
as a joke..
figures, as
they lead
such boring
mundane lives.
I decided to
try, so it
didn't sound
like a lie.
I stood in
a room, turned
off the light,
closed my eyes
with my arms
stretched out.
Feather in my
right hand.
I command you
to show your
face.. I chanted
in the dark,
thank god no
one could see
what I was doin,
they might think
I've gone mad!!
Do I care? I've
found a new
friend..my white
feather is an
Angel in disguise.
As I opened my
eyes just ever
so slight, I
witnessed a
bright shinin
light. So you
see I was right
to believe, as
I was answered
there n then
in the dark.
I carry my
white feather
close by in
my trouser
pocket..just
in case I find
myself in need.
I think it's
my friend, her
daughter whom
I visited last
weekend! Don't
worry Nattie,
she's doin just
fine..you rest
my beautiful
Angel, I miss
you so much..
but I now have
your white
feather.. so
I can stay in
touch.

Monday, 13 December 2010

Out of my Control

OK so this isn't my usual kind
of writing.. I'm going through
some uncertainty right now.
I'm sailing quite easily into
my seventh week of no fags..
The shit I'm experiencing at
the moment is really testing
my nerves. The words we all
get agitated with are the
one's that I heard some new
managerial prick, younger
than me,only been in the
job since last month.. they
want to get to know us.. my
line manager has worked in
our dept for roughly 12
months or so give or take.
I've given three & half
years of hard graft. He's
taken it, expected my
all, and now the fuckin
government want to take
my all... includin
possibly my fuckin
lively hood...JOB!!
So as you can probably
imagine my first
thought would be..
'I need a fag' calm
my nerves. I went out
for lunch to see a
friend who is the
daughter of my best
friend who lost her
brave but quick
fight against
Ovarian cancer
three years ago.
We went outside
for logs.. she
immediately lit up
a cigarette. I
was proper pleased
with my utter control
in this my first
test as to whether
or not I crumble
and ask for a drag
of this white
burnin fag.
I didn't even want
a drag... good eh?
My plan was to
give up before my
50th birthday.. in
10 weeks time..
yeah February is
less than 10 weeks
away... run and
hide. Can you
think of places I
fit in (I'm 6'tall)
I just wanna bury
my head in the sand,
need some one to
reassure..hold
my hand. I have
come to realise
I have to gather
up all my inner
strength, ride
this traumatic
time with as little
stress as possible.
I don't want to lose
any sleep over it.
I've lived on pain
killers for days..
Sleep is good..wine
not so good. I need
to get through
this. Should I
get to the end
of the tunnel..
so to speak and
the bus has already
left, I'll hang
around for a while,
some thing else
is bound to come
along...right?
So there you have
it, my ability to
say NO to long
white sticks..
so far so good.

Friday, 10 December 2010

Verse

Ticklishly zingy feelings
that trickle recklessly
from toe to knees to head.
As you lie beside me,our
skin ripples, breath inhaled
excitement suspended, orgasm
spent. Eye lids flicker, tears
form, blink then trickle..
sticky warm wet sensations,
legs squeezed roughly,
knees bang, ankles click,
aching limbs with continuous
twitch.. heart beats..beat.
Love illuminates the air,
poison me with your kiss,
dare me to commit this
unlawful sin.. open
your arms, surrender,
let this love story..
begin. Chapter one..
and then she.......
kissed me with the
strength of a thousand
armies dancing on the
very edge of my
existence.. oasis.

Wednesday, 8 December 2010

''Fucked.........''

I'm in Limbo, not knowing.
Yesterday it came from out
of now where.. Yes I got a
job, but for how long I
don't know. Christmas
will be fun, by January
I might be well n truly
hung!! My job is on the
line.. so how do I feel?
Good question, after
several large glasses
of red wine... I'm
surprised I can still
type, let alone see
the keyboard.... hick!
I can only hang on and
see what the new year
will bring. I want to
stay optimistic.. but
daren't hold my breath.
I now the economic climate
is basically 'FUCKED!' And
by all accounts... me too!!
I am a worker, not a
shirker, spelling I've
given up, ya remember?
My future's totally
FUCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!
Uncertainty isn't
good for the soul,
I know I'm down in
the fuckin dumps, but
this red stuffs keepin
me on the up n up...
Coconut ice any one?
I've really lost the
plot now, slurp!!nod!
Smile.. blurred..
vision, WHAT??
So next time some
one asks how I am..
I might burst into
hysterical laughter
just in case... but
inside I'm feeling
empty. Don't get me
wrong I love
my job..cleanin the
shit of toilet
seats is really
quite rewarding.
Now it's my turn to
be 'shat' upon..
I have to laugh,
cuz if I don't I
mite just cry....
So for all these
years I've given
my all... this is
the thanks I get..
Bummer... I want
to go home...........!

Sunday, 5 December 2010

Turn off the light

Christmas...
just around
the corner.
Gifts to
buy, graves
stood by.
Lost souls
remembered.
Cheery sigh.
Friends who
give, with
thankfulness.
Time for
fine wines
and food, to
fair. But
while you
sit n eat,
hungry dogs
lie sleeping
at your feet.
Turkey's
cooked,
nut cracker
suite...
just give a
thought of
what life
would feel
like, street
wise, sleepin
crumpled in
a cardboard
box. Door
ways, gates,
frozen face.
Who've lost
their faith
with solemn
grace...
Don't lose
sight of
these people's
plight...
tucked up in
your bed, shut
out the cold
at night...
No fixed abode,
no family to
love..could
you deal with
any of the
above? Christ-
mas is coming
the goose is
gettin fat,
please put a
penny in the
old mans hat.
If you haven't
got a penny,
a half penny
will do..if
you haven't
got a half
penny....
then 'God
bless you.'
Celebrate
by all means,
raise you
glass for good
cheer.. give
generously
to the man,
woman or child.
Turn off the
lights, shut
out the cold.
Will that
damp wet box
keep him/her
warm tonight?

Friday, 3 December 2010

Forbidden flesh

With delicate ease,
peel away the outta
layer, ripple..lick
suck each tender soft
tit. Encourage this
forbidden flesh, reach
down with subtle
tenderness. Roll
with accuracy..brush
away the hair, simply
caress these luscious
plump breasts..Mmmmm
Trace the softness
of lace... pluck
beneath.. inhale,
quick with impatience.
Tickle, gentle and
with care.. soft
warm pubic hair.
The barriers are
down.. intoxicate.
Fumble at your
leisure..come
play with me,
let me be your
pleasure......

Sunday, 28 November 2010

Curtain call

I lay on my back, me legs wide.
You bent down to kiss my open
clit side ways on, shivers
ran there course through
my body, contorting every
which way I knew how...
'wow' babe you know your
stuff, I take hold of
your finger suck hard
and then shove.. deep
inside my throbbin hole.
Pull me close don't let
me go... our eyes dance
with the chill of the
cold air breaking in
through the bedroom
window. Try as I may
I can't cum, slidin
your fingers gently
then roughly up the
back towards my bum.
I pull you in toward
my face, hungry wet
lips, fingers ache.
Falling out of bed,
Your fall even closer
hug me tight with all
that you can, slide
your hand down the
front of my groin..
moan, head thrust
back, curtain call.
I lean against your
breasts, erect and
hard like ice.
"Suck.." you demand
and with accurate
finger, slide, push
insert not one but
two... legs apart,
sharp breath in..
the rhythm keeps
pace with my
turbulent heart.
Feet slide with
uneasy hold....
skirting board thud
with aching toes..
you hold my soul
in the palm of your
hand, my body shivers
with all that I
gave.. eyes wide
shut, I tremble
inside. Heart
wide open, fingers
and thumbs. 'Easy
now, come lay
by my side..'

Tuesday, 23 November 2010

Immerse

Touch me in the pouring rain.
Hear my voice speak it again.
Words fill my ears, scream,
colour in my fears..touch.
Muffled sounds pierce my
skin.. pain immerses..
energy sources , drain.
High voltage .. dim the
switch, trickle through
my flesh, refresh, trickle
once again. Indulge me..
transform me... hypnotise,
and when everything has
stopped. Stood still..
heart rate just a trickle.
Flutter.... grasp what
you had. Spin on your
heels.. touch me in
the rain... trickle,
kiss....kiss....kiss.

Sunday, 21 November 2010

'WOW' & here it is .......


Well there ya have it.
My new colour ...and ME!!
I've been a blond since
I was put on this planet
many moons ago... for
those who know me...
this is the new me,
get used to it !!!
I love this new
vibrant colour.
Each n every
time I catch
a glimpse in
the mirror
I 'STOP' take
a good look &
say 'hi sexy'
This female
with this
sassy new hair
colour smiles
back and if
I'm lucky..
blows me a
kiss!! ;-D.
I have to
admit that
when I've
just taken
my crash hat
off, I look
some what
ruffled..
But I don't
care what
anyone else
says.. I
LOVE the
new ME !!

Saturday, 20 November 2010

2 Grand


Today I paid a visit to
a very nice young man
named Joe. He's very
very clever, with
his hands..don't ya
know. He applied
surgical gloves,
lay me down..I
opened wide for
him to run his
fingers around
my gums (this is
really quite
erotic!) Impression
s were made with some
smelly stuff inlaid.
My eyes starin wide
out into space..
Time for a rinse
with the pretty pink
shit, scrape the
remainder of filler
from my cheeks.
I thought I was
getting my brand
new dentures to
day but alas
I still gotta
wait a while
more. My gums
are so frickin
sore. £500 paid
taken off my
bill, will have
to sell my body
to science at
this rate!!
Another date
booked when
some more stuff
will be done..
more money to pay
along the way..
So for now I'll
just stay with
my gums rough
as hell,pot
holes where
food once
embed..like
daggers &
swords of
chewed up
food, where
my teeth
really should
not land when
my jaw hits
base. I cringe
when I eat, dig
my knife
in my seat..
eyes water
as I chew real
slow just
in case....
Blood splutters
out and down my
chin, tears
gather speed
as I choke
back all that
I first had
feared. £500
more next time
I happen to
call ~ to see
that nice young
man called Joe.

Friday, 19 November 2010

'WOW!'

Today I found a new direction.
I've had this idea for some time.
So I made an appointment.. sat
down.. decided on what I wanted
to do, what colour I needed to
be. I've been blond for way
to long now... that was the
old me! Today I decided that
a change was as good as a rest.
Colour chosen... no turning
back, out with the old...
it's time for the new 'me!'
I'm no longer blond, I've
redefined my image.. I
feel alive, although I've
actually been awake since
5 a.m that is... 'Cup of tea
love?' 'Yes please came
my reply!' Sharon know's
I don't do things by halves,
a different colour, nothin dull
or what I'd class as 'boring!'
I'm not quite sure what shade
you'd call it, but I know
it's the new me.. each
time I catch my reflection
in a window.. I smile, shoulders
back.. smile even wider....
'YES' I like it... the
new me. I love the 'NEW
ME'.... you wanna see?

Wednesday, 17 November 2010

Where to now?

OK so I don't wanna kick any one's ass.
I'm still not sure where I'm actually at.
Should I stay or should I leave, do I
still wear my heart on my sleeve?
I have no words to describe how I
feel right now.. but numb springs
to mind. Running scared, that's
what I think I am...no excuses,
no reason why.. maybe it's my
age.. god knows I could cry.
Last week I had 7 needles
plunged into my skin ...
twenty minutes later..
went shopping! I have
to admit it didn't hurt.
I have to go for more
of this... just to be
sure. My chest hasn't
stopped hurtin, if
anything..it's worse!
I used to be a nicotine
addict, god knows how
often I've tried.. failed
beet myself up, weak..
no praise there. I had
my last 'fag' last
Friday.. so far so
good, but it's early
days. I'm really quite
concerned, this pain
in my chest and why
it hurts.. I still
have no words to
speak... see how
I feel ..........
.next week.....!

Monday, 15 November 2010

Silence

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Is this the real life?
Or is it just fantasy?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Too late my time has come,
sent shivers down my spine..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Close my eyes, but I can
still see.. picture this,
who am I? Can you feel
my pain? I can taste
this fear, the unknown.
Blah! Blah! Blah! Blah!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
If you read this, I don't
actually care anymore...
So there you have it...
I went for a walk and
lost my way..I have no
intention of coming
back to reality for
whatever length of time.
I have given up with
anyone, whoever you
might be, think, know!
Take me for who I am,
failing that Fuckin
leave me alone. I
really don't give a
flying fuck anymore.
I will return when I
am good and ready..
ADIOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GOODBYE

Sunday, 14 November 2010

'Prick'

Last Friday was my first time.
I'd never done it before...
the woman said it wouldn't
hurt... I'd feel just a few
small pricks !! Tender
moments with an in take
of breath.. slowly at
first then ...enough
said, I have to admit
I didn't feel the rest.
Some how I've managed
to damage the muscles
in between my ribs..
breast tissue's OK,
no lumps or bumps
to worry... about.
So my first anxious
appointment for, yes
you've guessed.....
Acupuncture!! Just
a few small pricks.
Timer on, lights
dimmed.. quiet
seeps through
the room.. eyes
closed. 'Magic'
works its way.
Has it worked?
I have to go
through this
process a few
more times..
nothing to
get concerned
about, just
a few pricks!!

Thursday, 11 November 2010

Cheesy Grin

Yesterday was all smiles and hello's.
Today is a different story, no more
'I like what you said' kinda tomorrow's.
Today you didn't stop me in my tracks,
make me lose my balance, fall back.
Today you wondered by, your head so
obviously else where.. that perfume
you wear... lingers, and after you've
gone... I can still picture you / us,
what did I do wrong? Today I lost
my temper, it's been one of those
days.. then the announcement came
across the air.. for the 11th hour
on the 11th day.. time for a minute
silence.. time to remember our
dead. Ten minutes past you pushed
right past.. I didn't take much
notice, I was busy...right?!
The door locked, the light came
on.. I whistled.. carried on.
Finished you left the room..
I asked for you to leave
it unlocked.. what did you
do? You gave me this silly
'cheesy grin.' Say what?
I tried to imagine you
and I lying next to each
other after a passionate
romp.. you turn to me and
give me this 'CHEESY GRIN!'
Could I go there? I mean
what is with this silly
thing. Sprawled across
your beautiful face so
fair... green eyes..
red lips..'cheesy...'
I can't go there..
you and me could never
be... passionate romp?
Sorry love..now way!
So for now this pretty
picture will stay put
inside my head.

Monday, 8 November 2010

Tooth Fairy

A few months ago I had the .. in this instance 'good' fortune to receive a tax self assessment form from the nice people at the tax office. In my infinite wisdom I tootled off to my local office to enquire why I had had this such form as I was employed full time and had been so for many years. They had no idea why I had received it and I made an appointment to go and take all my P!! forms in, make myself at home, basically have a nice comfortable chat to try and sort this quandary out. It came to light that my tax code hadn't changed from when the kiddies were wee tots and I did a stint at self employment.. it was a brief encounter, but this had appeared to go unnoticed that I was still on that said tax code. To cut a long story short... and not bore you all with the sordid details of my private stuff.. today I went back to the tax office, got mistaken for being a man ( I had my work uniform on, woolly hat pulled down, jacket zipped right to the top) trousers.. it has been pissing it down all day here, I'd just come straight from work.. I'd been up since 5a.m to start work early so I could leave in time to get to the tax office) anyways.. she thought I was my husband who'd arrived to represent me!) I removed my hat and added ' no love... I am Mrs. Thompson.' At this point in the conversation she blushed! We all made a light joke of it.... but we had to go through it on the way out again!! She still blushing!! I said you should see me in all my m'bike gear, they all think it's a man underneath!! Are you smiling whilst readin this? Feel free to laugh... humour is what you crave so fuckin laugh!! ;) It will be 'ME' who will still be laughing when the cheque arrives .... you still wanna laugh?
After alot of form fillin in, signatures signed, dates dated. Duplicate forms signed, dated etc etc.. she added up just how much she thinks I should be getting back...... put it like this if I didn't have dental repair to pay for... I could pay for the tickets for the two of us to Canada next year!! I'm so happy now I've got the forms filled in. She just flew through them, a tick here, a tick there... I just gotta wait for the money to go into my account, then and only then will I be happy! So I'm guessing there is a 'tooth fairy' after all ;)

Sunday, 7 November 2010

Hindsight


Last Friday I went to see a friend who I've known for many years.
Well I actually help her with a few jobs around the house, being
of the age where upon she isn't as agile as she once was...
The house is old, with many wooden floors throughout..
A farm house.. thus being many items of brass and copper
articles needing polishing. We had run out of the polish
we normally use. With one phone call to her son, he managed
to get hold of a can.. on his return . presenting it to his
mum. I used to love the smell of 'Brasso' the polish made
for copper and brass. I screwed the top off and holding
it closer than I should've to my nose.. I inhaled.
My god if I had had hindsight, I would not have even taken
the bloody top off.. let alone sniffed it. The feeling
as it travelled up the lining of my nasal passages... left
me feeling very heady. AND ... all of about 3 minutes
later, my vision disappeared... funny coloured lights appeared
ziggy zaggy across my vision. Yes, I was experiencing a 'Migraine
headache' my first in 20 years.. having avoided the three main
ingredients for so many years.. chocolate, coffee, cheese.
Then I do this stupid trick. Two pain killers a dark room and
complete silence, half an hour later and I'm able to drive
home.. straight to bed... 14 hours later. I survived.
I don't know if any of you have ever had one of these hideous
headaches... it leaves you feeling shell shocked, fragile..
dazed... down right bloody awful. So no more inhaling
liquids that once tickled my senses... I later looked
on the reverse of the can...wait for it..'Hazardous
to the environment!' I rest my case!

Saturday, 6 November 2010

Hot n steamy


Hot stings lap at my skin.
As I lower myself into the
steam..Sharp intake of
breath.. quickly countin
to ten as the water climbs
higher and higher, my skin
screamin.. grippin pain
collectin pace.. then,
then I calm down.. sit
back, hot juicy bubbles
climbin gradual speed
up my back. Legs
stretched out, feet
wrapped around the
taps.. but where do
my hands happen to
land? One on my
phone as the flash
goes.. the other
hand's tightly
squeezed between
my thighs!!
Yes.. between
my thighs.. all
juicy n throbbin
as the water
subsides with
heat. Time
to put down
my phone...
legs relaxed
as I'm lyin on
my back. My
skin's all
pink..'Mmmmm
what do you
think?' As I
talk out loud
to myself. A
wicked big
grin gathers
speed from
each side of
my mouth to
my chin. Dunkin
my hand to the
watery depths
beneath, cool
air grips
loosely at
the openin to
my clit. 'Oh
Yeah.....'
warm folds
of wanton
skin, circular
motions of
not one
but two
eager to
please hungry
digits!!
Slowly at
first. I
like to tease,
*tongue slides
around my lips*
Water sloshing
from front to
back, cold air
as the heater
packs in. Grip
hard the edge
of the handle,
rest my knees
as my orgasm
accelerates.
Right hand
quickens, my
legs start to
twitch as my
*SHIT* Org...
as....M. 'YES!
'YES! Oh GODDD
DDDD.' suddenly
some one knocks
at the door.
'You OK..?
*In a loud
uncontrollable
voice* 'Yeah
just singin!'
'OK' footsteps
fadin away..
sweat trickles
down my face,
stingin my
eyes as it
escapes. A
few more
touches, I
always finish
what I've
started..
'Mmmmmmmm
mmmmmmm...
Oh Yeah,
yeah, yeah!'
My legs
flinch as
my orgasm
sinks, as
the water
slaps over
the side..
Holdin
my breath
lettin go
of my legs,
I pull my
self under
the water.
Legs in the
air.. shoulders
and head all
wet.

Thursday, 4 November 2010

She

The conversation turned.
Is there anyone you like?
I grinned whilst dancin
out of the room. Distant
laughter lingered in the
air. I ran back in with
a smile on my face....
trying not to smile to
much. 'Go on then who
is she?' 'SHE?' I asked
Yeah you know the one
you have been in love
with for so long. Ya
mean it's that obvious?
'Go on then......'
'what?' I felt the heat
rise from my chin to
the top of my head.
They weren't givin
in until I told them.
Lynn seemed to think
her gaydar was pretty
good.. I can normally
tell who is or maybes
is or might be!!
For once in my life
I was gobsmacked..
yeah ME, QUIET!! That's
a first.. I hardly ever
shut up and when I do..
they think I'm sad.
'You can't tell anyone,
you mustn't say a word
I can't have her
lookin at me and
wondering.. had
she heard I wanted
her..is she really
interested..yeah
right!!
'So?'...
So what? You
have to tell us,
we won't give up
until you do..
'smiling' OK! OK!
Her name is Carol,
they look at me
blank. Carol..
you know, the black
nurse.. then I think
maybe I'd gone to
far. The penny
dropped, they'd
figured it out.
Lynn wasn't sure
at first if
she was in or
out!! Blushing
now subsiding..
the heat has
died down. Cross
your heart and
hope to die..
'Die?' Yeah you
mustn't say a
word... If she
ever found out,
that I wanted
her, I'd die!
So for now I'm
sitting safe
and watchin
from a far,
I'm not gettin
my hopes up..
there's time
for that later.
And of for some
reason she
isn't battin
for my team,
then I have
nothing yet
lost. ;)..
finger's
crossed!

Wednesday, 3 November 2010

Sold


At long last the 900 year old Thatch has gone under the auctioneer's hammer.....SOLD!
£115,000 . A fair price for such a beautiful property. Idyllic scenery, character.. low ceilings, doors, limited space. Just big enough for two people... or in this case two people and one small dog. So at long last we will be getting new neighbours.. on the other side. It will be interesting to see the property develop. New thatch.. water and electricity in.. clean windows to look out of. The new owners aren't in any rush to move in until they have had megga amounts of repair done. It's had no inhabitants for over 50 years, so you can imagine...maybe ... the state of it. Large spiders - rats in the roof. Bird nesting in the straw.. Wondrous joys to be had once all this is renovated. But ......... because of the property's age, it can not be altered on the outside. It has to remain as it is.. black and white. No extensions allowed. Now conservatories built. It is as it is and has pretty much been for the last 900 years.

Monday, 1 November 2010

Laugh ............ please?

Saturday was funny. The weather was good for a bike ride, I excelled my speed ability. Third gear and 'wo....' 100 mph. It's strange but fast as I am travelling, it feels like I'm hardly moving! I'd grabbed a cup of tea from mucky D's. (MacDonald's) took a seat on the openly graffiti wooden benches.. next to a couple of young lasses. They were strokin a Staffy (dog). Apparently some guy had asked them if they'd look after him whilst he went into a shop. They agreed. The dog looked old, grey whiskers!! We told her we'd look after the dog and await for his master to return. In the meantime several people wanders by giving their approval with added
'Aw's' and 'ooooows!' Smilin at us as though we'd (in full bike gear) were the proud owners of this magnificent pooch! (like we were on bikes??!) One young kid ( roughly 7 or 8 ) came round the corner wearin plastic fangs and growling at the dog, who did't bat an eye lid or shake a hair, unbeturd by the lads behaviour. I looked at the boy and said 'Nice teeth son, where'd ya get the mask?' He looked on in shock at me... he wasn't wearing a mask!! Unfortunately his mother wasn't either ( god, she was one ugly bitch!!). We eventually met the dog's owner. A man who lived on a canal boat. His faithful dog was called 'Cam' who adored being centre of attention, but no one could comfort him while his owner was absent. The disturbing noise the animal made was quite weird.. like a quivering noise, his lips shakin, bless him, his daddy was on his way. We had no idea what his owner looked like but we knew Cam would now. Animals are so clever like that. Saturday was a day for ridin my bike. I saw many bikes out. We do celebrate Halloween. It originated from Ireland. Where upon they used to use turnips, hollow them out as you do pumpkins. Halloween represented the end of summer and the beginning of winter, the fine line between the both, the Irish believed they could see and hear the dead who hadn't quite made it to the other side. Just a snippet of information for you all.. eventually pumpkins were brought in. Thus the market for these amazin versatile vegetables were introduced.. 'Wallah!'

Sunday, 31 October 2010

Think not of me

Never think of me.
Never talk about me,
nor speak my name.
I hear all that
you think.. turn
away from my
thoughts.
Be gone. My
heart bares
all scars.
Bleeding..
pain..
Dissolve.
I feared,
but I did
conquer
those fears.
Dream not
of me..
cry no
tears for
my life.
My face
is here
to stay,
do not
look in my
direction.

Saturday, 30 October 2010

Accomplished

You had pissed me off the last time we had contact. I was tired, you were just annoyed with life at the time, your life, life in general. I ... we exchanged words.. I went silent on you. My old trick was, that when ever we had fall outs I would go silent on you. I've grown up a lot since then. I now retaliate... say what's buggin me. We had words. We picked the wrong day to exchange glances let alone words...words that dented my heart..
I wrote about it on my blog, as I am doing now. WHY? Because I want to.. because I feel / felt I had changed so much in the past how many years. You have in unleashed a different part of me. I have ( silence !! ...thinking what to write next... blink, dry mouth..lick lips.) We have evolved you and I. That night I fell in love with you. It was Halloween. Fancy dress. I went dressed as a devil, red from head to foot including red spiky fork. I even had a red tail trailing behind me. It took me days to make...
Line dancin back then was a Large part of where we are now. I found this person dressed from head to foot in a black outfit, painted with white bones..aha a skeleton! ( smiling.. remembering.) Trying to dance for me wasn't an easy thing, in fancy dress...bloody impossible! We laughed, we had some member able times dancin, I couldn't take my eyes off you that night...
It's been some years since then. We've been through some shit together. My journey started that night in October, Halloween. Tonight is October-Halloween.
Wednesday 27th October. We went out for a drink, prior to that, I was still feelin subdued.. deflated. All these years we've been friends, very good friends. It's some times a kiss n a hug.. I didn't always insist on a kiss on the lips. If I was feelin confident I would lean into you, make some joke about it. I still feel.. confused. You are the only female friend I have who kisses me on the lips... some times.
First ever serious relationship.. one night I was textin to you under the darkness of my duvet, phone on silent. You shocked me, but for everything I was tryin to accomplish.. happened. It just landed in my lap. You wanted a part of me. You wanted to share me... with her. What was I going to do? What I always do... I delivered.
One cool day, a weekend if I recall. You called for me. Parked your car in our drive and we went for a walk down towards the river. I was cool, calm and nervous. I knew what we were doing...walking...avoiding cow pats.. climbing over five bar gates.. makin easy conversation. Why was it easy conversation? I'd known you for quite a few years... Was 'easy'.. comfortable? Was 'easy' the air bag to catch the commotion that was about to hit full swing into your lap? My lap had already been filled, my heart was all a flutter. My heart raced like an horse gunnin for the finishing post. Sweat formed in that tender bony area between my breasts.
We walked toward the flow of the river. The air was still, not a leaf stirred, a couple of cows looked in our direction. Just then I found a tree.. leaned against it. You came toward me, I could see you weren't sure on the procedure. You face brushed against mine. I took the lead. We kissed with abundance. My tongue..
My hands traced the out line of your face, like two lovers. But we never were .. lovers. You said I'd just kissed your face off... I smiled. Yes I had. I am a good kisser (something else I've learned over the years, admit what I'm good at without sounding like I'm bragging!) That in itself isn't an easy thing to do, but I'm workin on it. We walked back to the car. My head was buzzin, I felt light headed. We came, you saw, I conquered. Was this the start of some thing good for me? Is this what I really wanted? We didn't get any further, mainly because I was already in a relationship... lookin back, would I have done things differently?
Had we have taken it further... would you have let me take you. I've been in limbo for so goddamn long... I've given up. We / I like to flirt with women... men to some times. I get scared with men...
I was always telling you 'if you just gave me a chance you'd be screamin for more!' Who was I tryin to kid. We've been through so much crap you and I.
( Blinkin, holdin my eyes..fixed.)
I have given up.. I text you last week. You're not ready for another commitment, least of all with me.. Even though you once told me, you'd be scared.. of what? I could be so gentle with you.. you can't cum easily... me neither hun, anything great is worth waitin / workin for. Like I said babe, I with draw my intentions.. friends we will always be... lovers? we will always be friends.
I thought I'd lost you.. did we some where along the way lose each other? Have I found another side of you / me?
Memories ~ A blast from the past.
It all fits into place now. You said on Wednesday when we met for a drink. From the night we went line dancing.. I'd had lots to drink. Drink and my emotions don't mix.
Some guy you had your eyes on, Dave... he got up to dance.. I wanted to say there and then that I lov....ed you. I bottled it. Walked out. That night you didn't sleep. I walked and walked...
It was gone midnight. Fortunately it wasn't raining. Pity for my poor feet. Eight miles in total darkness (I have a fear of the dark.) Dave came back to you to look for me. I was almost passed out on the pavement. I eventually realised I should come back to the car park. I couldn't find your car. You'd driven off lookin for me.. wrong direction again. I think I'd set off in the wrong direction since that first time I saw you .. line dance? Skeleton?
By the time I'd figured out which road I ought to be walkin down, I'd come to realise I was on my own, pissed as a fart.. cold..!!
Worried ? I was a bit... I had no money. The words kept running around my head ' I love you..' Should I have told you? Would you have figured me out ? I so wanted you to figure me out.
I got to the next village.. it did rain on the way. My feet hurt and I had blisters on my heels. Day break was just around the corner. Birds were singing... I was sobering up.
I managed to get home in one piece. Straight to bed, couldn't get warm.
Bang on the front door.. You standin there.. Panic on your face. You hadn't slept all night. I had walked eight miles.. running from my fear. Fear that if I had told you what was eatin away at me... fear that you would reject me. Fear that I didn't know who I was... I know now who I am. It all fits into place now... your words... not mine.

Thursday, 28 October 2010

Interested

We shared a room last time we went out.
A business trip of sorts, I was on time
she was late, we chatted, laughed.. ate
our food. When all was finished, we threw
caution to the wind and went out into the
cold night air for a night of loud clubs.
Sticky floors, drunken fools, music so
loud my ears hurt.. poundin floors,
everyone dancin in a fashion..cramped
into this smokey place.. shouting..
what they think are the words to what
ever's playing. I'd had enough by 1
a.m, you decided to stay a while
longer.. every one was well...
past the limit.. thank god I chose
to walk back through the town to
the hotel.. what the hell, the
streets were well lit, and the rain
still fell but ever so light. You
arrived back at 3, I was still awake
not yet fully asleep, I leaped out of
bed to open the door, towel
wrapped round as I wear nothin
in bed.. I threw it off last
before divin back into my
cosy bed. You stumbled about,
I thought you so funny.. pissed
and so fuckin loud.. you had
to be in work in less than 4
hours. You wished you'd seen
sense and come back with me
then. Trippin you fell on
my bed, your hair was well
out of place, and your red
lipstick...smudged down your
face. You cleaned your teeth,
giggling at me.. covers up..
good night *giggles* lights
out. This year we're going
again, you asked me if I was
getting a room. Disappointed
you are, well we've almost
got this far.. I've got a lift
there and back. You won't
hear of it, I'm stayin over
night..that's it! On the
end of some one's bed or
floor I will sleep. They're
all askin if I'm going.. to
Alton Towers for the works
Doo, Of course I am ... I have
a new interest now... you?

Monday, 25 October 2010

Lure

Darkness bites at my heels.
Damp beneath my eyes, south
of my heart, beating. Gather
all that is mine, strength
hold fast.. embed. Pierce
this flesh you see, devour.
Engage all that we could
have... touch all that lies
beneath your skin, slither...
Wrap your soul around
my heart.. strangle.
Easily distracted,
simple.. cool breath,
nipples inlaid with
hot kisses.. heat
impacted.. sweat
rejected.. slumber.

Sunday, 24 October 2010

Tasks

When we were together, an item you would say.
You would give me a box full of tasks to do
for when you went away.. I have to admit
that I found them rather boring, tedious
in fact.. It wasn't all my own work, the
Internet played a huge part.. those
goodbye tears,, didn't come from the
heart. I often wondered what I would
feel like if you never came back..
Apples made of clay, stories about
this n that. Going out in the car
wearing nothing but a blind fold,
driven in total darkness in the
freezing cold..what were you
thinkin, I've come to the
conclusion you never did..
candle lit dinners, no words
to be broken.. silence was
some times utter bliss..
Don't do this and don't do
that.. wear this, I made
it for you, lookin back
I must've looked a complete
twat! Funny though these
lines may sound... for
some godforsaken reason,
I actually hung around.
I'm not mouthin off, I
guess you tried your
best... I wonder how
your new boyfriend fares.
I assume he's still around
or is he some one else who
finally found out your
simple mind, maybe he
too has left?! I really
am so happy now, my life
is full of glee.. it's
me, my bike.. this man,
we're so happy us three.
I did myself a favour..
when I decided you'd
bored me to death..
And now I believe you
too have left him, or
did he throw you out?!
Life has it's way of
giving back in return
what you took away..
I'm only glad I realised
what I knew back then.
Everything is gone
now, nothing of you
is here.. I smile
and often think..
of how now I really
feel. I have my friends
around me, the one's who
actually care..would
do absolutely anything
for me.. yeah.. they
really do care. I'm
sitting here smiling
cuz I have found
my path in life..
I don't use people
and when I'm done,
I don't spit them
out. I love my life
..my family, my new
car.. and all that
is mine and his..
I love and adore.
This poem suddenly
sprung into my
head, but it's late
I really must go to
BED!!! ;)))))))

Saturday, 23 October 2010

Just the ticket

It rained,
I just
knew it
would. I
got wet,
from head
to foot.
I paid by
card, it
wasn't so
hard..the
tickets
are booked
for next
year, I
can't wait,
to see their
faces when
we return
to Canada
again. 10
hours by
plane, but
first by
train..so
I don't
care that
it rained,
I have
something
to look
forward
to.. 2 weeks
booked in
fabulous
Ca..
E mails
to send,
smiles to
keep, July
in hot
conditions
what more
could I
ask for,
all for
two weeks.

Friday, 22 October 2010

Fumble

Bite my lip whilst fingerin my clit.
Ease slightly the fabric which surrounds
my zip. Squeeze together in finger n
thumb.. the pain is exquisite.. the
sensation becoming numb. Tingle..
tickle.. fumble..Mmmm...moist.
Lightly rub with accuracy..
What starts off slowly soon
becomes erratic behaviour.
All senses..heightened...
nipples erect, the air's
filled with sexual temper.
Clitoral hood engorged
with blood..'Oh my goddd
I'm coming..' this is
gettin good. Labia swells
and the air is perfumed
with Euphoria.. this
is heaven.. sweaty
fingers, all muscles
twitch. Hand becomin
erratic...quick, slick
is my finger upon my
clit..fumble. slick,
sticky now wet.. but
wait... I haven't
finished yet!

Thursday, 21 October 2010

New Toy


This is my new baby! I used to have a BMW but it was one of those things that just became older and in need of alot of dosh spending on it. I got my little whiz of a car today.. Peugeot 206 1.4..cd player, central locking, ace radio.. comfy seats.. silver.. she is amazing.. she didn't cost me an arm and a leg.. I don't get attached to cars any more, only motorbikes.. when I part with those.. I normally cry. Yes a fully grown woman crying over a m'bike... and why not?! I found her on Sunday.. put a deposit down and collected her at 6pm today... she will be cheaper to run. The BMW was a 2 litre, expensive all round, this one is what I consider to be 'the Bea's knees' 'Awesome!' I just have to think of a name for her... any ideas?

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Tuesday, 19 October 2010

'Umph'

Some times I have an idea for a poem.
I wrote one a couple of days ago..
I got no comments so I decided it
wasn't one of my better jobs..
'press'...'delete' and it's gone.
I haven't written a great deal
of 'erotic' stuff lately..
I haven't had my head
screwed on right.. dark
mornings.. coming home
in the dark.. Workin
hard, wearing myself
out.. being ill.. it
all takes it toll on
me..(I'm not gettin
any younger!) I do
have to say though
that I do like this
time of year.. cold
crisp weather. I did
however brighten a
few peeps lives up
the other day by
givin them an award.
As for everything
else in my life
right now, I don't
have the 'umph..'
the time... the
energy. So if
you still visit
my blog and write
some kind of
comment then I'll
be happy with that.
I'm guessin we all
have days like
this eh? So I'm
now off for a
long hot bubble
bath.. and finish
my beer.. Adios
peeps..

Saturday, 16 October 2010

Award Time


OK peeps... I feel my heart's
ready for some giving, as I
always find it's much easier
to give than to receive....!
So here I go.. This award is
for some people I've come to
find in this blog sphere as
...well exactly what the
award says... 'Awesome!'
And in complete order....
drum roll please..thrrrr
rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..

1. Nitebyrd

2. Sunny

3. Spiky

4. Heff

5. Red Shoes

6. Joanna cake

7. Gray

8. Krippled Warrior

9. Me! I am giving
myself this
'Awesome' award. ;)

I don't have to explain
why I have chosen you..
it's self explanitory
really.. I just have
one thing to say really
"E*N*J*O*Y......."

Friday, 15 October 2010

Trickle

Warm fuzzy feeling,
beneath the folds of
my thighs..'mmmm....
Arrrrrrr.....' now
slide, your fingers
deep into my clit.
Left a bit, right
a bit, 'oh yeah'
that's it just
there.. 'oh god.'
Feel how you
excite me, see
how my body
moves with
each gentle
stroke.. ease
softly at first
with you index
digit, leave
your print
on my bud of
forbiddeness,
suck, roll
each hardened
pink bud..
alternate with
burnin desire,
build my fire,
ignite. Thighs
tighten around
your hand as my
orgasm breaks
free..sendin
me into the
tunnel of
light..Euphoria
electrifies..
with thunderous
rapture.. head
spinnin out
of control..
eventually
easing..take
my body..hold.

Tuesday, 12 October 2010

Obsession

You glance in my
direction, with
articulate
precision..
At first I
don't feel
your gaze..
The music's
loud, the
vibration's
massive..I
stumble to
my feet. The
heat is risin
my pussie is
on fire. I
wander onto
the dance
floor.. I
devour the
beat, trickles
of sweat slide
down my spine.
You bump into
my direction,
our bodies
move with
sexual
discretion.
I feel your
presence,
you breathe
beneath my
neck, touch
becoming
imminent..
and yes
we kiss..
kiss...
kiss. Our
tongues
dance like
flames,
flicker..
you pull me
into you,
my hand finds
your waistband.
I whisper with
tender ease..
follow me
please?
We stagger
through the
crowd.. feet
and heels
clatter..
voices muffled
sound. Hand..
I pull you behind
as the door, I open..
shuts. Cubicle
open, door shut
behind. We fall
beneath the sound
of our hearts, as
we thump down
our seats. You
pull me to one
side,
my hearts beatin
so loud, the fire
in my pants, my
clit in desperate
need of attention.
Fabric down and
aside. Your eyes
fixed like
cats eyes..
in the dark.
Realisation..
passion.. touch,
heat.. lick..
taste.......
fire...eat.
Arms stretched
above my head,
legs wide, buried
head beneath..
tongue, juices
flow..screams
imminent, flick
flick.. quick..
Nipples hard,
pain v pleasure,
equals 'Oh my
Goddddd....'
'Yeeeeaaahhh..'
Legs quiver,
juices flow..
Orgasm coming
into land...
I bite my lip,
tremors flood
my emotions.
Every nerve
ending tingles
with spent sex.
You pull yourself
up to my face,
I taste my juices
tricklin down
your face...

Monday, 11 October 2010

Condoms

Imagine if all retailers started makin their own condoms and kept their own name!

Tesco condoms - Every little helps.

Nike condoms - Just do it.

Puegot condoms - The ride of your life.

KFC - Finger lickin good.

Duracell Condoms - Just keep going
& going & going....

Pringles condoms - Once you pop you
can't stop.

Burger King condoms - Home of the whopper.

Andrex condoms - Soft, strong and very long.

Mcdonalds condoms- I'm lovin it.

Polo condoms - The one with the hole..OH FUCK!!

Sunday, 10 October 2010

I got that feelin

Like I'm going to sneeze.
Sore throat, weak knees.
My eye lids are heavy..
I've gone back to bed.
I keep checkin I'm
breathing..just in case
I'm dead. My joints
have started to ache,
my throat feels like
it's been ripped out.
So please behave
yourselves, I don't
have the energy to
shout. I got the
feelin.. it's hurtin
me to think, I know
I got the dreaded
lurgy.. everyone else
who lives here..has.
So for today I'm
stayin put.. duvet
cover pulled up..
tissues at the ready.
Pain killers by the
bed side.. I know
I only have a cold
but for cryin out
loud, I feel like
I could actually die!

Friday, 8 October 2010

Fuck me

Legs spread wide,
eyes tightly shut.
Come on baby.. be
my slut. Tease me
keep it hot. Finger
me good, finger me
hard. 'Oh my god..
I love you girl..
oh my god I'm
coming.' Yeah
do it baby, do
it well. Mmmmm
fuck my hole
you bitch...
fuck me hard.
Oily slit, rub
my juicy clit,
'yeah baby, yeah'
QUICK !!!!!!!!

Thursday, 7 October 2010

About Indi

OK so this post is different.
So I thought I'd tell you a
few things about me...here
goes......hope you like!

1..My favourite hymn is Ave Maria.
(I can play it on the piano.)

2..I have a passion for purple..
(it is my protector.)

3..I am a great cook
(food is my passion.)

4..I love fresh sheets on
the bed, the smell of
red roses.

5..My favourite flower is
Freesias..white ones.

6..I adore anything to do
with motorbikes..

7..I love to be kissed
on the back of my neck.

8..I love the Paranormal.
Our house has a ghost.

9..I don't self harm anymore.

10..I love me... for once in
my life.

11..I love red wine. warmed.

12..I want to be seduced by
a woman, be given gifts
but not have an excuse
for them..

13..I love to walk in wet
grass with naked feet.

14..If I could have one wish?
What would I asked for..?

15..When I was little, my uncle
tried it on.. I've never
told anyone about it..till
now.

16.. I like swimming in the
sea..

17..I can't stand liars.

18..My favourite country
is Canada..

19..I have a severe temper
but I keep it undercover.

20..I am allergic to housework
yeah right.. no really!

21..I am a fun loving fish.

22..I love smoked Salmon.

23..I have a crush on Spiky.
(but don't tell anyone ;)

24..I can play piano, guitar.

25..I love to eat pussie..
(doesn't happen much
these days!)

26..I have a new kitten.

27..I wish I could fly.

28..I don't trust reality.

29..I can write with both
hands AND with my feet.

30..I love the pain of
having tattoos.

31..I hate dental pain
(1 hour in the chair
today, £300 less in
my pocket.)

32..I would kill for my
children..

33..I have very little
patience...

34..I don't care where
I live as long as
I have a roof over
my head..food in my
belly.

35..I have loved many
women, broken only
one heart...mine!

36..I masturbate every
day %)..

38..I need to be loved
I have to feel
needed..wanted.

39..I love life.

40..Vanilla..I love
it.

Night folks,
time for more
Zzzzzz's.

Tuesday, 5 October 2010

Fire

Turn it up,
feel the heat,
my groin is on
fire.. I've
got a wet
seat..damp
is my clit
squelching
is my finger
eager to
please..
turn up the
heat.. erect
nipples press
against my
shirt..I love
to flirt..
She asked
me if I was
going to
the party,
'yes' came
my reply.
You? She
smiled her
reply..
She loves
the perfume
I wear.. I
am keen and
full of dare.
She has a
wicked smile,
we chat..
for a while.
I have to
go..she opens
the door,
our eyes watch
as our hands
slightly
touch..the
heat is on,
I want her
now..turn
up the heat.
Turn it on.

Monday, 4 October 2010

Black on White


Just a picture.
Black on white.
My heart beats
fast.. faster
when I see your
face. My mouth
becomes dry like
a sand dune..
caught fast
in a storm..
Blink, I
forget.
Stare with
regret..I
almost had
you there,
will we ?
Could this
emptyness
ever be..
some thing
more than
nothings?
Reality
hurts..
it numbs
the pain.
Smiling
faces..no
more.Empty
horizons,
amazing
grace.

Sunday, 3 October 2010

Guilty



Shit hits the fan.
Duck to avoid..I'm
not making sense..
can you tell? The
weather's turnin
cold again, but
my body heat is
hot, night sweats
not yet.. but I
feel they're on
the way. Achin
joints, swollen
knee.. Arthritis
fallin apart at
the seems. I
am headin for
distaster.
Lead me not
into temptation
I know the way
myself.. (laugh..
applaud) smilin
at this reflection
starin back at me,
oh shit, duck
to avoid.. I'm
startin to rant
again... glass
of red anyone?
Yes please..
purely medicinal
of course. Can
I have another
one please?
I decided to
have a lazy
day today..
time to relax,
not make hay.
I felt guilty
for sittin
down doin
Jack shit..
Gotta keep
goin, gotta
stay fit. I
failed..
got out
the hoover
cleaned
all through,
I'm tired
now.. will
this pain
cease? Will
I always
feel ill?
I can't do
this lazy
thing..I
think I'm
going crazy!
I can still
make my words
rhythm.. from
time to time.
I just don't
have excitin
to say.. so
I'm rantin
OK?????

Saturday, 2 October 2010

MBF


Ever had an unusual
text from a friend
who when you think
all is right..she
says 'think again!'
Oh no not tears..'
not yet, but wait!
She's going thru
one of those
phases when what
ever you say is
the 'wrong thing.'
Sittin in the
car..parked..window
down.. it's startin
to rain.. I feel
her pain. I try
to say some thing
good... but it
doesn't work..oh
shit. Only this
text was different.
Of course.. it
would be. I'd had
a rough day, I
was tired, got
bloody wet, it's
poured down all day.
I could feel her
ache as I read
the words..oh
god, I've been
here before.
I'm your friend
don't ever forget
those words..OK?
She'd had a shit
two years..un
loved, you guess
the rest. I
have a shoulder
to cry on..the
window's open
it's still
raining. She
doesn't give
a monkeys..
here comes
the guilt..
I should be
thankful for
the man I got,
I do....what?
I told her to
back off..I
should have
seen it coming
as she threw
it back. I was
starting to get
slightly annoyed.
She Say's she
hates herself
more than I do.
I don't use that
word if I can
help it.. it
hurts. The
air waves are
quiet for now,
I miss her cheery
voice..words that
tell a story..
I mentioned that
I actually cared,
I'll wait to see
what happens..
but don't ever
forget my friend..
I will be here
waitin for my
phone to ring
that noise..
to tell me that
you're back..
and smiling
once again.
Don't be to
long.. it's
too quiet
without you.

Thursday, 30 September 2010

New arrival


Look closely. Look very closely. Tonight when I got back from shopping.. I opened the back door to be greated by a little ball of fluff, spitting! My husband works on a dairy farm.. they have many cats...kittens.. no birth control! This tiny (roughly 3 weeks old) hypoactive kitten is the sole surviver from his family.. he was found wandering on the tennis court at the farm..(posh farmers with loadsa money!) He bought him home and we have named him.... 'Bruce!' He , as you can see is 'adorable' 'cute' 'pretty' and did I mention he spits alot. My other puddytat Tigs.. isn't too sure of him, we are keepin them apart for now, think Tigs is pissed off with me for bringing this sweet little kitty home... he feels left out now..(he's fast asleep on the black leather sofa).. Bruce has his own 'pad' litter tray, food.. shoe box with fake fur in it, he has a loud purrrr...he has settled in well.. he has teeth like needles and claws to match... so there you have it...'Bruce.'

Wednesday, 29 September 2010

Swollen Parts


I have come to believe that for all the Marathons, sponsored runs, walks, swims, bike rides etc that I have done for the best part of my life.. for all kinds of charities.. raised thousands of pounds.. had blistered feet, cramp, pulled this n that's. Lost toe nails through friction due to miles and miles n miles of training..that I have possibly worn my joints out! Having had a swollen left knee for quite a long time (3 months roughly) I decided to go have a friendly chat with the Doc. I was right in my theory about wearing myself out.. don't get me wrong, if I had my time again.. I would run again, raise megga amounts of money for charity.. my knee has become swollen.. it's very tender and for the past three weeks I have been limping,. I have started self help. I now take Glucosamine with sulphate twice every day.. I wear supportive tubular bandage on my leg every day.. I rest when I am asleep.. I find it very difficult to rest for more than five minutes.. I'm a 'fidget' can't sit still.. but I find red wine helps, normally after an 8 hour shift of cleaning.. I am half way to falling asleep... wine just helps my eyes to close ;)))). Anyway.. I have the symptoms of 'house maids knee' and I can here you askin yourselves what the fuck is that? PAINFUL springs to mind.. fluid under my knee cap.. Arthritis to be precise!! So if anyone can shine some light on this, got any other remedies or painkilling ideas, I'd be most grateful for your input. I have to admit it's starting to piss me off, especially when it interferes my m'bike riding abilities!! That aint funny!!!!!

Tuesday, 28 September 2010

Deleted

I have been reading some of my very first posts that I wrote all those years ago. I can see how I have matured in more ways than one. I have also 'deleted' the nipple with the stubby fingers that some times appeared on my comments. I have also 'deleted' her comments..and any pictures she ever drew, they are gone.. this is a classy blog, no room for tacky stuff. No this is not an angry attack... I have lost all my anger for that person. I have grown a new heart. I have 'deleted' every thing that ever represented her in my life.. I have cleansed my blog, de clogged it. Cleaned up my act. In fact I am smiling because today I have had a very good day...excellent in all truths. My tax code for the past six years has been the wrong one! Today is pay day... in a BIG way.. my code has been changed for the better... I may well be able to afford my dental repairs after all.. plus other nice things.. but I'm not going to spend it before I get it.. but for the past six years I have paid too much tax so now I get it back... bring it on! I have decided to keep a rainy day account, unlike my Grandmother, it won't be under the mattress Lol... but it doesn't have to rain for me to spend it... that's for me to forget about, let it grow, mature, like I have done over the years. I love this idea.... I love me. ;)

Sunday, 26 September 2010

Unbutton

Moist folds of flesh
hides this bud of
sinfulness..hidden
beneath this golden
fleece.. tickle.
Unbutton my gate,
open my door..
come lay beside
me on my floor..
Trace your finger
lace..remove..
lather, razor
shave..remove.
Coolness, shiver
lick my flesh..
slide your
fingers into
my now wetness.

Friday, 24 September 2010

Dance

Empty lines of empty
words with empty heat
that has lost it's
burn. Empty noises
from empty mouths,
empty hands that
leave empty prints
from clasps of
empty fingers that
once held my body.
Empty lives with
empty hearts..
this script is
out of date..
Then I found
you there, full
of noise and
heat, my heart
jumped a beat.
Our hands found
each others
bodies and now
we add the heat.
Touch my mouth
with your finger
circle motions
of tongues
dance.

Thursday, 23 September 2010

Smile


Smile's come and go..
depending on our mood.
Today I'm feelin.. you
might say...rather low.
Today is the beginning
of a journey to regain
a smile I was born with
but over the years..I've
kind of been in denial!
First appointment at a
place where nightmares
live.. a comfy chair..
bright lights.. needles
everywhere. Dental pain
is some thing most of
us can bare.. for me
it's a white knuckle
ride.. I hate goin
there. The woman who
handles these fears
has been a wonder to
my nerves, she knows
how I feel when I shake
into he room.. my
heart races, my esteem
low. Today I had 5
needles to freeze
my mouth.. grindin
drillin, head vibratin
hands shakin, muffled
groans of waitin for
the one nerve to awake,
legs trembling.. eyes
squeezed shut...I'm
thawing out now, my
lips no more distorted.
Have eaten gentle
bites of soft food.
My stomach muscles
ache from 2 hours
of permanently
bein held....
My dentist is
very calming
has the words
to soothe my
pain.. you'd
think at 'my'
age I'd be OK!
Let me tell
you... I am not.
I have a new
filling, a
temporary crown.
My wallet is
now empty..
I still feelin
rather down!!
Money isn't
everything,
but for me
right now..
it's gone..
so my smile
I was was
born with,
for now..
is not quite
ready.. to be
shown. I have
more work to
be completed
with more £'s
to part with,
we used to be
an NHS dentist
but now they
are PRIVATE,
where £ signs
appear to
triple, my
worries of
how to pay..
but for now
I'm coming
to terms
of having
this almost
grin..tinglin
still goin
on ..on and
around my chin.

Tuesday, 21 September 2010

nitebyrd ;) HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE

'H*A*P*P*Y ~ B*I*R*T*H*D*A*Y' to you.. Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday dear sexy woman with gorgeous tatts in tits, who's warm, tender, funny, loving, kind, amazin, love and has a great taste in music...............


****HAPPY BIRTHDAY**** TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO........ YOU !!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY NITEBYRD ~ Have a wicked. awesome day beautiful.


Love you... many happy returns... blow the candles out.... but stand by to call 911
just in case ;)))))))))))))))))

Indi xxxx

65


Tomorrow is another day for most folk.
For me it is a day to celebrate for
two important people in my life..
the first being my husband who
happens to be 65, but goddamit
he sure as hell doesn't look it.
When we first met, I tried to
imagine him being 65, cuz with
us having a 16year gap between
us.. it felt scary for me too
as I knew back then with him
reaching this grand age, I'd
actually be 49! I have many
surprises up my sleeve for
him. We are going out as a
family in the evening. I have
ordered a cake for him.. an
amazing present which I just
know he's going to love..
and the all important words
'HAPPY BIRTHDAY.. my lovely.'
Now where was I ... Oh yeah
tomorrow also happens to be
this amazing woman's big
day too... every one...
'NITEBYRD' is celebrating
her birthday tomorrow..
but I won't tell you how
old she is because I
actually believe she is
this age young. So when
I get up at 5a.m in the
morning I will send this
special message to nitebyrd
wishing her all that she
ever wanted, plus happiness
as this will bring her out
of the 'Abyss' where she
has taken permanent
residence of late.I
would love to think
that she could vacate
that darkness ...
She is an amazing woman
warm, funny, clever..
artistic..friendly..
smart.. beautiful..
has fabulous tatts,
er I said 'tatts!'
Although I have to agree
she does have amazin..
Tits..there ya go I
said it. ;)


Indi

Saturday, 18 September 2010

Acceptance


Welcome to my world.
Take a moment, see
how my hand glides
beneath the fabric
of your existence.
Touch me..slither,
fingers entwine
the pubis, damp.
Excite, fumble..
nervously rub
with first
digit. Soft
tissue, with
expert hand
gently rub
in circular
motions...
Release my
inhibitions
one by one.
Stare into
my vision,
engage, hot
breath upon
my face,
whisper in
my ear your
darkest
desires..
'Oh yeeahh'
heat rising
clit swelling,
beads of sweat
upon your face,
kiss, suck..eat
my lips. Pace
quickens,
heart rate
off the scale.
Pupils wide.
Kiss me bitch
time to deliver
this...'fuckin
....'Mmm'...
'JESUS CHRIST'
Arghhhhhhhhhh.
..YES! YES!
YES!!!!!!!!!!
ORGASM!!!!!!'

Made for Walking!


I fell in love with these amazing boots last year whilst in Whitby.
I bought them with the good intentions of breaking them in...
easier said than done with my oddly shaped-scarred feet..
I did try them on in the shop.. they did feel kind of comfortable.
However the first time I wore them.. after a few hours I was
crippled... so size 8, one careful lady owner.. no mileage..
they cost me £85, they are not Doc Martins but a make known
as 'underground.' The soles are this black rubber, the soles
are also screwed on, with tiny screws. Built to last. I still
adore them, but I will never have the feet to fit them.. so
I have come to the decision to part with them. So if you like
them and want them... I would like £50.00 for them. I will
pay for P&P in the UK. If you live outside the UK, then you will
have to cough up the dosh. Should it come to that, I'll get
them weighed for you and priced, I'll even send you the receipt.

Pain


Good morning people.. wherever you be in this vast and ever expanding world.
Today I am going to be discussing 'pain' and you're probably wondering why I've chosen a grinning moggy for my post? Well this little cutie makes me laugh.. it doesn't matter how tired or hungry n tired or pissed off n tired I am feeling, this little Kittie does it for me.. so that's my reason. I thought I'd take a different approach to writing word As like most people on blog land seem to be having trouble with these days is writing what they are used to doing.. but with some added difficulty. I put it down to the planets changing.. summer whistles through and Autumn skips right on in, sittin her cute colour ful ass down on the ground on her carpet of dead leaves. Ya see I do still have poetic license.. In the busy lives we lead, sleep usually plays a big part in how we function.. I have come to the conclusion that being a woman is an 'Erotic' event. However it does come with certain rules and regulations.. health and safety being on there some where too.
I have with in the last couple of years been experiencing pain in my joints.. another symptom of the...wait for it.. 'Menopause' that stepping stone into the unknown darkness of ...... dare I say it? OLD AGE!! Grasp it by the balls and firmly squeeze until the sad fucker that suggested old age.. stop breathing! So some one at work suggested I start takin a supplement to try and ease my symptoms.. not sure how many years I have to cough up my hard earned pennies for these wonder pills. I do have a active life.. I get plenty of exercise at work. I sound like a fuckin Labrador dog! However may I add I don't not go around pokin my nose up peoples crotches ( Mmmmm...). The supplement I am discussing is Glucosamine with sulphate. I do have wear n tear Arthritis in my fingers n toes. These huge pills should definitely come wth a health warning.. they're resemble horse pills.. they're massive. Any one who had a problem swallowing pills should seriously think again!! I had five operations on my left foot about 14 years ago.. I do find that in cold damp weather my joints do hurt, something to do with air pressure. If any one out there can advice me on this as it's hear say. I not being in the medical profession. Or does any one else have any bright ideas as how to get around this some times ridiculous pain, maybe there's a tea I can drink? I shall continue to take these horse pills.. I am curious as to how they work, if they work? So that is all I have to write about now.. I've had my lie in.. once I am awake I have to get up.. after all I think we sleep enough when we are dead.. life is for living, cosy as it is under my duvet.. but I have the weeks shoppin to accomplish with out too much stress... so have a great weekend people.. smile whenever you can, it pisses the other miserable bastards off!

Friday, 17 September 2010

Pulsate



The touch begins,
tingling follows,
and when the heavens
engage..pulsating
comes to the fall.
Short and sweet..
no messing around.
We meet, we fall
head over heals
in love... we
fuck..we touch,
we tingle....
we pulsate...

Wednesday, 15 September 2010

Indulge

So indulge me with your
feelings if you please.
You have given me a
glimpse of some of
who you are, I have
thrown my eyes wide
to your world. I
have seen your
beautiful breasts
and I in return
have given you
a glimpse of
my fantasy with
tempted screams
of the fire in
my loins, yet
we still dangle
in this empty
void, we are
no further
forward yet
we travel not
backwards.
Open your
eyes, with
all your
senses, take
hold my love,
I....in my
entirety
would give
you my world
but not as
how you think
it would be,
but how I know
it should be.
Amaze your
whole body,
soul and
mind, open
your eyes..
inhale this
beautiful
scent. Let
us not waste
another minute
of what we
could have.
Passion can
fulfill desire.
Another level
awaits us...
let us take
the next step.
Fear not, I
will with gentle
ease, be soft..
I wish to please.

Tuesday, 14 September 2010

Sister Act 2


Well I've shown you my new sister in Canada, this is one of her other sisters. Cindy is her name, but I call her Cinderella, she and I got on famously. She is so happy go lucky kinda gal. She has a 'awesome' laugh, which really hits the high notes, thing is it doesn't matter what she's cracking up at, Cindy starts to laugh then it becomes contagious and then I start, then every one else joins in.. they say laughter is good for the soul? Oh yeah for sure. We share the same birth sign.. the fish Pisces. Her BIG birthday is next year four days before I hit the BIG one. So a double celebration. We went out with various relatives whilst we were stayin in Canada.. that day we visited a place called Souris. In Souris there is a well known 'swinging bridge' which goes across the river Souris. This is a wooden with steel ropes bridge from one side to the other, it was built around 1900. If my memory serves me well, the property developer back then wanted to be able to get to both sides of the river so he built the bridge. I had great fun on the bridge because of it's name 'swinging' I got half way across and starting to jump up and down making it move quite vigorously.. ya had to hold on.. Cindy didn't like the movement of it that much which caused me to have hysterics and jump some more.. as you do! I love my new found sisters, whacky as me and so much fun to be around. We got on so freakin well, I miss them so freakin much. Thank god for E mail eh?! After our day out in the Canadian heat and eating copious amounts of ice cream.. we arrived at a place in Portage, the local town for early dinner.. I loved the food there..'Bills sticky fingers' the name of the diner... this is a photo of Cinderella usin her cell phone.. we call them mobiles! She just happened to look up at the appropriate time and I went 'click!'

Thursday, 9 September 2010

900 and sold


I live in the countryside.. I am lucky to have rolling hills with beautiful green luscious fields around me.. a view most people would take your right hand off for. I am but a ten minute walk from the river. I live next door to this gorgeous thatched cottage, which happens to be over 900 years old. For the past 45 years this property had stood empty. It has no running water, no electricity, not much of anything really. It is a listed building which means the outside of it can not be changed in any way.. it is in fact protected by law, our house has the same criteria only our house is over 400 years old. Whilst the house has remained empty the Duchy of Lancaster have taken care in keeping it looking pretty.. the Duchy of Lancaster are our care takers too so to speak, they also own most of the land around here too. The farmers rent the land, buildings too. In actual fact the one famous person who owns all of the farm buildings and farm houses around here just happens to be the 'Queen of England' yeah she is my land lady. So I live in a very special house, it has many characteristics, wet rot ;) rising damp ;), wooden beams throughout the house, two landings. Sash windows, concrete floors, and in the old days before health and safety.. a fire place in each of the bedrooms. So for 45 years not a soul has lived in the Thatches.. until now. It went under the hammer last week at auction and a property developer put a bid in and now owns this quaint cottage. We haven't seen any one there yet. It will be nice to see what he has planned for it. The doors inside are very low and wide. It has two small bedrooms, earth floors. In the old days the people who lived in thatched cottages had their animals live with them, for safety as to stop thieves but also to keep the house warm.. and you can imagine the smell too!!The house has , like ours, no foundations so when heavy traffic rolls by you can feel the house almost shudder.. some times pictures on the walls move. We have mice in our dry lined rooms, you can hear them scurry about. I think the thatch has rats in the roof.. it may well need a new thatch, that will be very expensive. The asking price for this two up two down ancient plot was £100,000 to £120,000. Like I said we don't know how much the new owner got it for but he's going to have to spend pretty much that again to make it livable. I look forward to the finished product.

Wednesday, 8 September 2010

Ache

Hit me with the rhythm
of my heart that lies
awake. Spell out loud
the voice of reason
for you my life aches.
Breath hard, harder,
I am weak but in
your presence I
grow with profound
capabilities beyond
all imaginings. Do
not leave, do not
erase..nor ponder
what lies beneath
this fragile
existance you see
before you. Come..
lay down your
weapons of mass
distruction, wipe
away my tears..

Masturbation

The sun is hot on my back, the car door is slightly open.
A cool breeze ambles across my knees.. I am alone in the
car park. My clit struggles under the foliage of my jeans,
I ease myself to a more comfortable position whilst pulling
down my zipper revealing the band of my boxer shorts. A couple
of curled pubic hairs escape their enclosure. I can hear voices
in the distance, but I can see no one around me. The cd is on pause.
Keeping a close eye on the rear view mirror, I slide my hand down
to the warm creases of my pussie.. My clit ignites with every
careful move. My nipples stand to attention..moving my left
hand up my shirt, with minimal force past the fabric, under
the wire. Cold rushes my flesh.. my right hand engulfs my
aching wanton hole. Biting my lip I start to rub, gently at
first, teasing.. rolling the pink bud between my finger
and thumb.. I can see some one in the distance coming
this way.. I lower my left hand, pull down my crumpled
shirt but carry on rubbin my now swelling clit.
As they come closer I feel the urge to return to my
nipple.. the thought of being caught feeds my desire,
My legs start to tremble as I am nearing orgasm..
I pinch my nipples hard, biting down on my lip.
They are so close now, they must realise what I
am doing. Beads of sweat form on my face.. my
hand is working frantically.... 'Oh my...
goddddddddd' A wave of euphoric measure
pumels my skin, sweet nectar dribbles from
my pulsatin cunt.. I can't stop.. again,
and again, and again.. Orgasm subsiding,
hand aching.. I lick my lips, legs still
convulsing. Every nerve in my body flinches
with after shocks..pulling down my shirt..
closing the door, I start the engine, turn
up the cd and drive away..

Sunday, 5 September 2010

'Oops'




Couple of weeks ago I was sorting some unwanted crap out, came across this mermaid. I could never sell it, not because I didn't want to but no one actually wanted it, which is better for my nerves... therapy comes in different guises. That day I perfected my throw.. the stairs played a big part in it. This is a before and an after photo of the event which took all of five seconds.. from start to finish. The sound of glass breaking is amazing, the sound of plastic shattering is even better.
So there you have it people... sorted. All done and dusted as we Brits say. Just try it.. when ya feeling pissed off with life, find some thing that means absolutely nuffin to ya and throw it down the stairs... instant relief..

Friday, 3 September 2010

27


I said 'I do' with passion in my heart,
for all the days and night and times when
we were apart. 27 is the number, exactly
to the day, we met in church, with friends
and family.. the service went without any
hick ups.. We sang our favourite hymns, we
had a few laughs, hand in hand, heart in
heart we waltzed down the isle. The sun
shone that day and from that day on..
we've had our up n downs. You know me
inside out, you put up with all my woes,
and for whatever life throws at us..
I for one sure moment know.. I love you
as I did from day one.. as I do now.
Happy Anniversary my love, my soul.

Thursday, 2 September 2010

Just the Ticket

Last week I coughed up £1.00 for a scratch card. I rubbed carefully and discovered I'd got my money back. Today I took the winning card to another lottery outlet to get my winning £1.00. The girls said it so quickly ' ya want another card then?' and produced another card identical to the winning card I'd just given her. I thanked her and left the shop, sat in my car picked up a penny... scratched away the areas and hey presto I'd won yet another £1.00. So I got out of the car entered the shop, smiling and gave the girl behind the counter my second winning card, in return I had answered her question before she had had time to ask it. Yes I had yet another card... and to cut a long story short, as not to want to bore you all to death.. I scratched it off and 'fuck me' I'd won YET again!! Yeah you've guessed it.. £1.00. I got out of the car went into the shop and handed my card over, picked up yet another card, left the shop and sat in my car scratching the card..... only THIS time I hadn't won £1.00... I had won £10.00. Smiling with card tightly gripped in left hand I fell out of the car, sprinted to the front of the shop and handed the young girl my winning card.. ' no thanks I'll quit whilst I'm a head, and just take the money please.' Big cheesy grin on my face, £10.00 firmly in my jeans pocket and off I went, jumped in my car still wearing BIG cheesy grin on face and drove home... So today I did win... still think it was a fluke... should I have carried on? Would the next card have had more winnings on it? Think not... I'm quite happy with my £10.00 win.

Wednesday, 1 September 2010

Electric

Peel away the first layer.
With delicate ease, gently
and carefully without too
much discomfort, nor ruffle
the shear existence of what
is, or what could be yours.
Come play with me.. tease.
Let's take the floor..feet
tapping, heart thumping..
hard leather soles on soft
skin.. come take me in...
Electric violin, with
haunting sounds..full
moon..euphoria grounds.
Goose bumps covered
all eyes on you, we
dance like wolves in
silken fur..wide eyed
and legless, til the
stars go out, until
all but a single
shining planet whispers
those three words...
'I Love You '

Tuesday, 31 August 2010

Another year

Blood sweat n tears.
Hours of pain, agony
and sweat.. labour
was long and tedious,
ripped n bleeding..
the pain was long
and intense....
then you arrived
this tiny bundle
of joy.. the
nurse shouts
'it's a boy.'
I loved you
and nursed you.
I've watched you
grow from that
tiny being, to
the man you are
now. Sunday was
your birthday,
23 years old
you be. I applaud
you, love you..
you will always
be my little boy.
Still not too big
to slap, not that
I ever did..One
day you will find
your own place, a
time to break my
heart. So go...
celebrate in style
have a drink or
two on me, but
not too many.
Never drink and
drive, but for
whatever life
throws at you
always remember
to smile. Smile
for today, celebrate
for all your
tomorrows.