Meditation

Long ago my soul was torn, Today it was restored.. Plenty hugs, smiles and Pure relief as we met Once more.... Eight years passed Pain of living in the Past... Time to move On.... And so on, here We are again... I knocked on her door With anticipation in My heart... Nervous Makes tremble in My voice.... I do not know why I was worried of My arrival, cup Of tea... Some thing To eat...3 hours Went way too fast. Laughter n tears After all our years. Our friendship Is now back on track.

Inner strength

I see this is how my mum views
the world around her.
Tears well when I see her cry, arms wrapped around
Her like rose petals before the rose curls up and dies.
Take hold my hand dear mother, I am here for you, I will
Not let anything hurt you... I whisper in her ear.....
I love you.

Dementia

This isn't my mum.
one minute she's
fine the next she's
not.
Memory loss is
what the doctor
called it.
BOLLOX!!
Dementia is
what it is, it
isn't nice and
it will get
much worse.
Today she
was good, nice
happy ish
polite..my mum.
Phone went
around half 7,
my dad's voice,
my thoughts
raced to panic
in milliseconds,
my mum's gone
a.w.o.l again.
She didn't eat
her dinner
and didn't have
a drink..when
I asked her why
she said she didn't
want to, it isn't her,
she's got aliens in
her memory pad.
My dad's 81 this year.
He's takin the brunt
of her anger, last
night we had tears.
He tried to show
his affection by
planting a kiss on
her lips, she pulled
away.. not once
but twice... this is
going to get ugly,
she may get violent.
Who knows what's
going on inside
her head! I have
to stay strong..
not sure about
that.. my dad
will need me to
be a brick for him.
god help this
rocky road we're
about to ride
a long.......
my mum's
mum had this
ugly thing
called
Dementia..
she's died
aged
99.