Oblivion

With your finger prints on my heart
your smile on my lips,
crumpled sheets next to me,
yesterdays scent lingers
like red roses spent.
Tomorrow is full of all our
yesterdays, I give my all.
I've analysed, tormented this
thing we call love. I have
grown in stature, I breathe
fire with my kiss. Touch me
feel me let this world caress
us. Bleed with me, get down
and dirty with me. Throw
caution to the wind, let the
rain drench us, our bodies
ache for this. How can I
compare eternity when you're
not there. Ride the wave
of oblivion, scorch the
surface, catch me in your
grasp, and when everything
has taken place, wipe away
the tears from your face.
Paint the heat back into
this picture, we can...
we are...the future.

My new Girl.

At long last I can now show you all my next motorbike that I shall collect on March 1st 2010. Graphite is the colour. 1000cc engine with a R1 restricted engine so it's got enough 'umph' with the flick of the accelerate to produce an instant face lift! She's not yet named but I'm thinking of one. Ubermouth suggested I call her 'Uberbitch' Lol.. I mite yet call her 'Spike' but think it might be 'Indi' so maybe we should have a vote as to which name I should call her?! The photo looks slightly greenish but I can assure she is in no means green. I am hoping to go out on Black Thunder today, when I have put on my thermals and about twenty other layers as it is bloody cold! After a hard frost, I don't think it's bikini weather!!!

My All

With your touch
you heal my want.
With your want
I need your touch.
To want is...
to touch is
everything.
I want your
everything.
Come lay beside
me. Take my
hand, guide me.
To give is...
to receive is
more. I want
you, I want more.
I taste you, I
smell you. I
devour your love.
Love me.. and
I will give
my all.

Embrace

Bring forth this thing you call fun.
This tiny bud of freshness,
of wickedness..I call upon.
Rip away the fabric that
restrains your inner soul.
Come lay beside me, lets
see what we can unfold.
As I break away the chains
that keep you imprisoned.
Throw out your heart and
catch me with open arms.
A new era is born, my
love for you..no longer
torn. Embrace all that
I give.

Sold

I won't divulge who I sold it too or for that matter which country I shall post it too, but I have sold my big tiger painting, you know the copy of the original. I just know they will enjoy it. I have new funds to my Canada trip now. It's amazing what you can achieve with the Internet. So I can hear you asking what I got for it? So... should I tell how much I got or leave you all guessing? I didn't think I'd get a great price for it. I didn't hold my breath. But I'm delighted to say I am now £???.00 better off. So after all it's a good job I didn't just waltz into Oxfam and hand them over. I know they'd only sell for roughly a few quid in the charity shop, I should know I often buy bargains in charity shops. If I got £???.00 for one just imagine how much I might get for the rest of them! I am one very happy bunny :). Canada here I come!...................... .................................................................................Well did you really think I'd spill the beans on the price? 'But' I am a lot better off now.

Abrasion

Graze my flesh with your touch.
Let the heat simmer with the
speed that illuminates desire.
Come light my fire, taketh
away the distaste that you
left behind.. you can
become mine, two into one.
Impression is good, lust
is better. Feel your way.
Step into my footprints.
Let the sand devour, rub
away everything that was
and still could be.
Come . Infuse me,
let us not waste another
moment of what we have.
I need. I want. I desire.
Come.....baby.....light
my fire.

Road test

Today I had the opportunity to road test a Yamaha Fazer 1000cc motorbike. Unlike my Yamaha FJR 1300cc motorbike, this one handles much better as It's quite a fair bit lighter, but the 1000cc engine can handle the tightest of corners with ease. The body length is a fraction shorter but in comparison to the big bike it felt much more compact. I fell in live with it the first time I saw it. So how did I go on? Well the roads have been very wet and icy of late but today fared well for my test ride. I was a bit apprehensive to begin with because having ridden the 1300 for nearly two years, I have of course got used to the way it handles the road. After some hick ups I adjusted to the handling very well. Cornering as well as on the straight I can honestly say I love it. When I open up te throttle she lets out an awesome growl. So.... I went to the bike shop and bartered for a good price. and I got a good price! Right money matters aside, I get the bike on March the 1st with a 2010 plate, twelve months road tax, heated grips,top box, fairings to cover the engine and make her appearance sexier. I did want a red one but they hadn't got one. The colour is Graphite which in English is a stunning dark 'graphite' colour. 'AND' with it's lighter body weight I can actually pull it on to it's centre stand with ease, which is more than I could ever do with the FJR.. having tried this once I almost gave my self a slipped disc!! She is an amazing bike... I will miss my 'Black Thunder' but I'm sure her next owner shall treat her with the respect I know she deserves. As for my new bike I have thought about a few names for her... I may just call her 'Indi' after "MWAOH".. unless I fall upon a name that fits her sexy sassy appearance. I don't have a photo of her yet, but be sure that as soon as I get one you will see it. So all in all I have had an excellent day. And to celebrate I had a Macdonalds for my lunch, well I can't afford steak now I have a new bike to pay for!

Purrrrrfect Pussy

And here I have some more big cats looking to be re-housed. I am in the process of setting up a pay pal account, so bare with me. So..is there any one out there interested in buying any of these big kitties? As I stated in the last post, they are not the originals, they are copies...and I did not paint them, but I'm not here to promote the artist, I just want rid.

Cats Eyes

These are looking for good homes, along with several more paintings. But let me just tell you that they are NOT the originals, they are copies of the original.. wouldn't want to miss leed anyone. Right that over, I'll take anything for them, to be honest I'll be glad to see the back of them, they're past their want by date. I have some really nice paintings to go in place. If I don't get anything for them then I'll give them to the charity shop in town. But I would like them to go to a good home. So if any of my friends out there in cyber space would be interested, if not, no worries. I'm not one for forcing paintings on anyone that aren't interested.

Recovery

After spending the last three weeks recovering from leg surgery I returned to work yesterday, purely because I got so bored being at home. I need people around me. Yesterday was slightly slow on my behalf and after this week I should be back up to my usual speed. I still have to be careful when lifting heavy stuff, so basically I don't...lift heavy stuff. I did have a moment of using bad language today when in a lapsed moment I banged my lower calf area with a bag of rubbish... the air went blue and I felt sick. It's still very tender and bruised, but me thinking, that with regular exercise it will help to heal quicker. I was asleep by 8.30 last night, totally knackered. I can't wait to get back out on the open road and was thinking that I'm not getting any younger and what with my leg being ever so slightly weaker, I may well change my Black Thunder of a beast of a bike ( there will be tears shed) for a smaller cc engine but with enough 'kick ass' attitude that I can still go out with Spiky on the back and thrill her... but it hasn't happened yet, but I think it will. So watch this space for the new bike to appear... I will go for maybe a Fazer 1000cc in possible red or vibrant blue, but the colour may not happen to my liking as they only make the bike in certain colours..Boo Hoo !! So I don't really have anything exciting to report. This is it so read, inwardly digest and leave a comment if ya want too. Much appreciated. Sorry not feeling upto much of anything at the moment... need light nights and some sunshine, neither of which we're getting right now, when I'm back in the mood for writing some serious crap... I'll let ya'll know :). Signing out indigo xx

Back in the saddle

Today is the first time since I had my operation that I've had the weather and the nerves to get back in the saddle. They say that for those who lock their bikes up for winter are the ones more likely to have an accident when they finally get back on their bikes, because they think that they can ride as fast in winter as they did in the summer. I rode my amazing 'Black Thunder' last November for the very last time before the snow came. But having had almost almost three weeks off work due to the operation on my left leg. Not sure how my injury would hold out, still got some nasty painful bruising visible, but I had to go for it... today is the day I regain my nerve back. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I decided that the weather conditions today were now ideal to get back on her. I have to admit though I was some how dubious of straddling her, starting the engine then figuring what to do next. It didn't take me long once I'd got over my nerves to knock her into first and slowly ride down the drive. Indicate right, glance in both directions, off I went. With the sun dazzling through the naked trees like a strobe light. I flicked down my tinted visor knocked her into second then third, fourth then fifth and I was away into the distance. The first bend was the same bend that I go round every time I drive out of our village. It hadn't changed, it was still the same sharpness. As I approached it my stomach rolled with the movement of the bike, knocked her down in to fifth then fourth, the engine roared, I leaned her over to my left and out the other side back up the gears into fifth then sixth. My nerves had gone. I was back in the saddle and loving every minute of it. With the roar of the 1300cc engine between my thighs, a broad smile inched it's way across my face. I had this vivid picture in the back of my mind of Spiky holding on tight. Her arms wrapped around my waist, a picnic of delectable delights tucked away in the top box, the wind behind and the sand dunes in the distance... but that's just my wicked mind coming into play. I have to admit it did feel great to be wearing my black leathers again and be Queen of the road once more.

Singing the Blues

I have come to a final decision to sell one of my paintings. I no longer have room for it on my wall. It's called 'Singing the Blues' 12" x 15" framed as you can see in the picture. This is me, I posed for it. I had longer hair back then, yes I play the guitar. I'm off to Canada in June so need some funds. I hope whoever decides to buy it is happy with it. But don't worry if no one wants it I'll try EBay. So wherever you are in the world have no fears I can get it to you. I can set up a paypal account, so no worries there. So who would like to start the bidding? The artist is Jackie Adshead. Yes it's nice but I no longer have room for it. By the way this is not the original it is a print of the original, Jackie has the original on her website.

Empty

I got mad.
I thought
I'd got even.
I've even
cried about
it.. written
about it. So
have I got it
out of my system?
Have I learnt
my lesson. I know
I've hurt you..
I wanted too.
This isn't me,
I don't get mad.
I very rarely
cry, I guess
you'd call me
sad! I don't
know how you
felt, feel. I
kept asking
myself...is
this for real?
I know I can't
go back, I know.
I tried so fuckin
hard. It wasn't
me.. it was you.
You did this once
so long ago..I
found out I couldn't
actually let go.
I have to write,
I need to do this.
I guess deep down
I forgot who I
was, who I am,
who we were. I
don't know how
to mend, what I
have broken. I
don't know what
to do. There
can never be
another me
and you. So
all I want to
say is....I'm
sorry for what
I did, it wasn't
you it was me.
We are worlds
apart, we both
broke each others
hearts. So I hope
I can one day..
forgive myself
for the hurt
you gave, not
knowing what
you did, and I
now realising
I did the same.
If you read this
chances are you
will not realise
who or what I am
on about, I guess
you know how I
feel, felt. As I
cried and tried
to get even.
But I'm tired now.
I've given up
my fight, what I
did wasn't nice
or right. I hurt.
I think I always
will. I died
inside... we
both died inside.
I quit..do you?

Words of Wisdom

1. Life isn't fair but it's still good
2. When in doubt just take the next step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick,
you're friends and family will, stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument.
Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with some one, it's more healing
than to cry alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first pay check.
10.When it comes to chocolate, resistances is futile.
11.Make peace with your past, so it won't screw up your future.
12.It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13.Don't compare your life to others, you have no idea what their
journey's about.
14.If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15.Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry
God never blinks.
16.Take a deep breath it calms the mind.
17.Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18.Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19.It's never too late to have a happy childhood.
But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20.When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21.Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for
a special occasion. Today is special.
22.Over prepare then go with the flow.
23.Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24.The most important sex organ is the brain.
25.No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26.Frame every so called disaster with the words "In five years will this matter"?
27.Always choose life.
28.Forgive everyone, everything.
29.What other people think of you is one of your business.
30.Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
31.However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32.Don't take yourself so seriously, no one else does.
33.Believe in miracles.
34.God loves you because of who god is, not because you did or don't do something.
35.Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it.
36.Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37.You're children only get one childhood.
38.All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39.Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40.If we throw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's. We'd grab ours back.
41.Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42.The best is yet to come.
43.No matter how you feel. Get up, dress up and show up.
44.Yield.
45.Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Good Vibrations

Let me introduce you all to my pride and joy.
She's a Yamaha FJR 1300 motorbike. Black
Thunder is her name. Having fun and going fast is
my game. So Spiky if you're wondering what my baby looks like, I can just imagine you
clad in tight black leather sitting on her back!
Hold on tight babe, wrap your arms around my waist, as I open up the throttle with the sun upon our backs and the wind in our face..0 to 60 in 5 seconds we will race. Top speed is 186 mph but on these small roads I 'll take it steady until we hit the open roads then hold fast my lovely, this is when the fun begins. I'll take you on a journey from A to B and everything in between will be fantastic. But for now she is under cover locked away and warm, this cold weather plays havoc with the body. Winter is a time for taking the car and leaving my baby behind. Sit astride my beauty, feel the vibrations between your legs.. with the thought of you babe wrapped around my waist, I'm starting to go into over drive... with these thoughts.... I bet you just can't wait?

Heat

Feel the heat rising.
Come kiss my face.
I ache like there
is no tomorrow,
I hold you with
amazing grace.
Touch me in the
morning, kiss me
in the rain, brush
away my tears, let
me breathe again.
Graze my nipples
suck my clit, scream
out loud, feel the
pain rising where
pleasure leads the
way. Beads of dew
trickle down my
breasts, fingers
sticky, orgasm
reigns. Brush away
my tears, my body
shakes, orgasm
returning.
This is what
we made. My legs
wrap around your
waist, pussie on
pussie, I lick
my fingers
I devour your
taste. Lips kiss,
bodies twitch,
hearts beating
temperatures
risng. I look
at you, I stare
into your eyes.
Then we start
all.....over..
....again.

Cleansed

Look over your shoulder
I'm still here. Look
to where you've been, I'm
still there. My hand still
warm from the grasp that
we shared. My lips tingle
from the kiss we shared.
I lick my lips in remembrance.
Taste the morning sun. Blink
rapidly to imagine your face.

Close now this episode.
I no longer love you, as I
loved this fair land that
I was born. This land was
once my play ground...
I buried my heart deep
inside, I lost myself to you.
I stand at the grave side,
but I will not mourn.
I have said my goodbyes,
you will no longer see me.
Stride forward, never look
back. Once I was there..
but now you are no more.

Pain was some thing you
inflicted into my soul, I
loved you with every inch
of my being. When that
died, my love gave new
boundaries. I held on
to what we had, wanting
more. I put you on a
pedestal, praised your
ability to paint. But I
lost you in transition
some where along the way.

I have come to realise
that you were one of a kind.
All that I gave to you, you
you sucked, poisoned my mind.
You are and always have been
a woman who takes not gives.
Was I so blind, not to see
what you have done. Your love
killed me, our relationship
died. But now I can move on.
I've cleansed my soul, you
will no longer haunt my....
every dream, I have found
my new horizon, the sun
awaits my smile, I will sit
and wait for the sun to shine.
I intend being here a while.

Sacrifice

I'm so cold, I can't feel
my hand shakes as I touch
myself. My flesh is week,
my head is full of want.
I see you standing there,
it's so dark I can just
make out your face, but I
don't look into your eyes.
The crack of the whip stings
my flesh. My eyes water, the
tears roll down... I want so
much to kiss you, feel you.
Your voice is a whisper
but the noise echoes a
thousand times. I kneel
before you, head bowed.
Skin shivers, I shudder,
I can taste my fear, you
hit me hard, harder than
before, I bend my knees,
stare down at the floor.
I have done wrong, I should
be punished..by your fair
hand. Pain is all I crave,
from earth I take it to my
grave. Sharpness bites at
my skin, blood trickles
warm sticky...the tears
roll again. Squeeze shut
my eyes. I ride this
wide wave...euphoria engulfs,
I want to kiss you
I want to feel you inside
me. Tear away this thing
you do to me, cut free my reigns
I felt the pain, now give me
the love. Wrap my in your arms.
Soothe my wounds, kiss away my
fear, anoint my soul with desire.
I'm willing to sacrifice everything
for us.

Award

I'd like to start my next post with a heart full of
'Thank yous' for the nicest bunch of people you
could ever wish to know. Ever since I stepped
into blog land I have come to know some very
interesting witty, some times sarcastic, but
incredibly intelligent warm hearted human
beings. I have a hand full who I hold close
to my heart (OK don't throw up) and they
are as follows............................
nitebyrd - Spikyzorajones - Ubermouth - Secretia.
Here you are girls this award is for you..'Enjoy.'
I am also very grateful to the other 34 mad people who have decided to become followers of my blog, not sure if it's because I write bloody good Erotica or
because I have a famous 'nipple' as my emblem! I thank you all... :)

Birth

Wrap your heart
around my love.
Tangle in my world.
Drink, swallow
inwardly digest
the darkness
that this thing
we share. ..involve.
Bury dead memories.
Lights, camera
action, smile for
us. Let's dance
in the nakedness
of loves found
but never lost.
Hold strong
all that you cherish,
all that we had,
have...re birth.

I Wanna

I wanna make ya hot,
I wanna make ya sweat.
I wanna pull ya knickers
down, I wanna make ya wet.
I wanna take ya in my arms
I wanna hold ya all night long
I wanna sink my tongue inside
where your soul belongs...
I wanna whisper sweet nothings
deep into the night, I wanna
say I'm sorry, I wanna put
things right. I wanna stare
into ya eyes, I wanna hold
you so tight. I just wanna
love you...and love you and
love you. . I do.....
from here until the clocks
stop, until the ocean runs
dry. I wanna make you happy
never to make ya cry. I will
always love you.. even when
I die.

My World

This is my world.
Where nothing is..
and everything might
be. Where I can, and
most often do..find
a dark corner whilst
thinking of you. You
don't know about me..
but I know everything
about you. I know your
smile. I can taste your
lips. I lower my hand
to the depth dark and
warm, open my legs, let
my mind wander, my finger
plays with my clit. As
I relax, I loosen my
shirt, nipples harden,
the beat of my heart.
I wonder what you would
taste like deep down in
your soul,'Oh' to kiss you
to feel your touch. To
lower my hand to your
burning crutch. To
nestle my mouth upon
your breasts, suck on a
nipple, reduce you to
tears as my hand finds
your pussie, with haste
you let out a scream..
As we we lie here in
the darkness of my world
I can only see what isn't
really there.

Tits up

I don't know how many of you out there ever take
notice of the small pictures that us 'bloggers' use to
identify ourselves with? My nipple appears to be
quite famous around blog land or so the comments
apply. Well I'd like to introduce you to my other
'nipple.' Yes this little darling of a nipple
complete with bar is mine! This is from the first
ever sitting I did many years ago.. I had long hair
back then. If I remember rightly the title was 'What the fuck you looking at?'
I'm not quite sure what happened to the painting. As for the nipple, well it's no
longer pierced. I had several bad episodes of infection so I decided enough was
enough. Fortunately that is all I have to show for now.. apart from ,my wounded leg but I won't bore you with the gory details...just to say it resembles a road kill!