Useless

You weren't a good Mistress were you?
You couldn't tie knots for toffee,
and when eventually you picked up
the whip, your aim was crap too.
The times you hit me, mostly in
the kidneys...'ouch' came my reply.
I often wandered what am I doing
here................. and why?
The boots were really quite nice
but and here comes that 'but'
you hadn't quite got the walk
figured out. Your ass was too
big, your stance not right..
and after beating the crap
out of me... I'd stay the
night! By morning my ass
was battered n bruised,
the mascara had run..
every time I sat down
it hurt my bum. But..
and here comes that 'but'
for some god damn reason
I kept coming back.....
was I really that sad?
I suppose I thought it
was this thing called
love, and all of the above!
The more you whipped me
the more stubborn I became,
hoping that one night you'd
improve on your aim?! But
sadly for me, you did not!
Saturdays came and Saturdays
went, and here I would be...
bent over, my eyes covered up
to stop me from laughing as
you waddled in those boots,
your ass was too big, your
aim was out of line, I did
all of this because I thought
you were mine. Years came
and went, time.. money spent.
Then out of the blue you told
me one day that it wasn't you
it was HIM!! He was the one
who instigated the plot, the
one who said what was what!
I couldn't get my head around
this.. I thought it was for you
apparently not! For had I have known
what was for real, I'd most
likely have told you both to...
FUCK OFF!!!!

Sacrifice

I'm so cold, I can't feel
my hand shakes as I touch
myself. My flesh is week,
my head is full of want.
I see you standing there,
it's so dark I can just
make out your face, but I
don't look into your eyes.
The crack of the whip stings
my flesh. My eyes water, the
tears roll down... I want so
much to kiss you, feel you.
Your voice is a whisper
but the noise echoes a
thousand times. I kneel
before you, head bowed.
Skin shivers, I shudder,
I can taste my fear, you
hit me hard, harder than
before, I bend my knees,
stare down at the floor.
I have done wrong, I should
be punished..by your fair
hand. Pain is all I crave,
from earth I take it to my
grave. Sharpness bites at
my skin, blood trickles
warm sticky...the tears
roll again. Squeeze shut
my eyes. I ride this
wide wave...euphoria engulfs,
I want to kiss you
I want to feel you inside
me. Tear away this thing
you do to me, cut free my reigns
I felt the pain, now give me
the love. Wrap my in your arms.
Soothe my wounds, kiss away my
fear, anoint my soul with desire.
I'm willing to sacrifice everything
for us.