Words of Wisdom

1. Life isn't fair but it's still good
2. When in doubt just take the next step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick,
you're friends and family will, stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument.
Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with some one, it's more healing
than to cry alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first pay check.
10.When it comes to chocolate, resistances is futile.
11.Make peace with your past, so it won't screw up your future.
12.It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13.Don't compare your life to others, you have no idea what their
journey's about.
14.If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15.Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry
God never blinks.
16.Take a deep breath it calms the mind.
17.Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18.Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19.It's never too late to have a happy childhood.
But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20.When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21.Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for
a special occasion. Today is special.
22.Over prepare then go with the flow.
23.Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24.The most important sex organ is the brain.
25.No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26.Frame every so called disaster with the words "In five years will this matter"?
27.Always choose life.
28.Forgive everyone, everything.
29.What other people think of you is one of your business.
30.Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
31.However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32.Don't take yourself so seriously, no one else does.
33.Believe in miracles.
34.God loves you because of who god is, not because you did or don't do something.
35.Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it.
36.Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37.You're children only get one childhood.
38.All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39.Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40.If we throw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's. We'd grab ours back.
41.Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42.The best is yet to come.
43.No matter how you feel. Get up, dress up and show up.
44.Yield.
45.Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Reflection

Today is the Anniversary of my journey down to Devon. It's this time last year I found out my best friend was poorly, so I drove to Devon to see her. The journey was long, hot and tiring but well worth it, as I wasn't sure how long it would be before I saw her again, if at all. She had been taken ill and was coping the best way she new how. Secondary lung cancer is difficult in any one's eyes to cope with. The thought of dying is scary enough. But to be told that you have only a short time left to live must be earth shattering.. and maybe she didn't take it all in, maybe she knew but wasn't showing so. It's usually the people left behind that have to come to terms with it. Today I went to her house in the local village, where she once lived and thrived. The house is locked and a for sale sign is bolted to the wall. Quit a sad day for me. I went on my motorbike, parked it up and sat for some considerable time on the porch, just thinking of what she might have said about my new bike. I tried to hold it together and was doing really well until her neighbour appeared and asked why I was sitting where I was. I told him I was remembering the good times as my best friend used to live here but died last year. Up until that moment I was OK. He was a friendly kind of a man in his mature years. 'Oh yes' he said, with a broad smile on his face. 'She was a lovely lady...' that was it for me, my eyes started to fill up and I started to cry! He started to move away, 'Oh I'm sorry for upsetting you,' he said. 'That's alright, ' smiling back, it was due to happen, and it's good that I've come round to see her again. I still talk to her, she's with me most of the time, it does get easier, but I wish she was still here, I have so much to tell her, we have so much too laugh about, jokes to tell, hugs to share!
I spoke to her daughter a while back; they still have her ashes; they can't move on yet, but as long as they have her with them, that's comfort in itself isn't it? I couldn't make the service held for her last year, I was in Morocco. I do have the service sheet from the church and the poem she adored so much. This is the poem by Joyce Grenfell.........


If I should go before the rest of you,
Break not a flower nor inscribe a stone.
Nor when I'm gone speak in a Sunday voice,
Be the usual selves that I have known.
Weep if you must,
Parting is hell,
But life goes on,
So sing as well.

I shall remember my best friend as I knew her best, full of life, always laughing, bright, vibrant,
cheerful, charming, with an abundance of love for life and every one around her, family and friends. I loved her then with all my heart and I still do.

Wishful thinking

Today is the first time since I've actually taken my hand brace off to do house hold duties, which is what I'm not meant to be doing;but being as I have the patience of a saint, I knew the 'rest the hand' part of the conversation with the hospital would eventually go out of the window. I have convinced myself that my hand IS in actual fact just bruised and NOT broken! The day is getting ever closer to going back to the fracture clinic, I'm starting to panic slightly . I can be quite convincing at the best of times and I've fallen for this. It has to have mended. It doesn't hurt any more. I haven't taken any painkillers for a couple of days. Could I be right in thinking.... I've mended myself? A miracle has happened. I'm a 'healer' and didn't know it. Some one told me once that I had two life lines on my right hand, which had significant powers... yeah I thought but you never know. Tuesday will be the day when I shall find out if my theory is true. Watch this ...............................................................

SPACE!!

True Colours

I'm trying to be a better person.

I'm trying oh so fucking hard!

I start off will all good intentions,

but then it goes awefully wrong.

I'm trying to be nice, huh!

I want to be horrid, think it may have

some thing to do with A.W.O.L

You see my hormones have left me, it's

also very fucking hard

like trying to fry onions in half

a tonne af LARD!!

I think I've lost the plot, I'm starting to cry

for gods fucking sake, ... I tried!

Some days I start off 'HAPPY'..

but get half way through the day

I'm starting to tare my hair out, what can I say?

I also lose my temper, that's not a pretty sight..

I'm crying now, and I have no reason why?

If any one can help me, please throw me a line..

I think I'm going crazy.................

Can any one tell me WHY?

Second chance

I now I keep barking on about running, but this is my new therapy. And I'm starting to get the hang of living again. Life's one of those things that for the most of us, try our hardest to do right. We spend a large chunk of time worrying about silly things, insignificant particles of every day life, have we done this, that right. It can get slightly boring after a while, but hey we carry on regardless. I went for a run today, no we haven't had any snow yet. I started off slowly and paced well, breathing was OK, feet were fine. So why can't every run be like today? Nope, sorry can't answer that either.. am all out of answers. I'm counting down the weeks to the run. I know for a fact that should I continue to train, fight the pain, do my best then I shall run well on the day, my adrenaline will take charge, the euphoria will be over whelming, the crowd will surge us on. I will raise megga amounts of money for this worthy cause, I will remember my best friend, I will get emotional. Live each day like it's the last, this is it, there's no rehearsal, we don't get a second chance.