Control

I've locked the door,
Turned out the light.
My world has been
turned upside down.
I got in a fight.
He knocked me down
from behind, my tears
stung as I thought I
was going blind.
I did my best. I
kept my nerve, but
he was too strong.
I felt some pain
again and again.
The taste of blood
flooded my mouth.
Coloured rainbows
stabbed my brain.
I felt something
sharp cutting
at my throat. I tried
and tried to escape.
This happened so
quick I felt
urge to be sick.
I never thought
this would happen
to me. I hit him
hard, he felt the
blow as he stumbled
he momentarily let
go. I held my breath
my heart pounding
in my chest. I ran
And I ran all the
way home. As I
sit here behind
my door I can feel
my whole body
Shake. I dare
not move. I dare
not speak, my
clothes are dirty
and torn......
I feel so weak.
I was afraid.
I let myself go,
I can smell the
pungent scent
of piss. I lost
my nerve..I
thought I'd lost
all my tomorrows.

Whitby

This is where we are.... Whitby North Yorkshire

Meditation

Long ago my soul was torn, Today it was restored.. Plenty hugs, smiles and Pure relief as we met Once more.... Eight years passed Pain of living in the Past... Time to move On.... And so on, here We are again... I knocked on her door With anticipation in My heart... Nervous Makes tremble in My voice.... I do not know why I was worried of My arrival, cup Of tea... Some thing To eat...3 hours Went way too fast. Laughter n tears After all our years. Our friendship Is now back on track.