Wednesday, 11 March 2009

Faith

The past few weeks have been some what traumatic for me. I haven't been very good at handling my life, throwing myself over the edge in more ways than one!!
Today was a tough one. I had had an emergency appointment through from the hospital for an eye problem I thought I'd over come last week-when I had suffered a hemorrhage at the rear of my left eye. With the massive headaches that attached them selves to me, stress and ample amounts of worry, I headed for trouble...big time!!
I couldn't sleep last night , had lost my appetite.... all in all..... I was a mess!! BUT ... and there's always a BUT!.... There's a light at the end of the tunnel! I arrived early for my appointment, sweaty palms and thumping tension head to boot. More eye drops that stung like hell, then more drops to dilate my pupils AND more bright lights to look into my eye cavity. All of what I experienced last week, so I knew what to expect. The consultant has no idea why I had the hemorrhage, and wants me to come back in 8 weeks time for another check up, with no doubt the fabulous stinging pain numbing drops!!
However it doesn't stop there. I had some blood tests last week. The large discoloured bruise still visible on my arm, along side the puncture mark the nurse assured me would not hurt ( SHE LIED!) My next obstacle is to go to my own doctor and figure out how to eat better... as one of the blood tests reveal I am ' Border line ' DIABETIC!!!!!!! Does it get any better? So that is my life in short. I still have the headaches, more due to tension due to the eye pain- some thing to work on with some medication no doubt I will survive and wonder what all the fuss was about. My eye sight is ok, for now. I intend getting my eyes tested and buying some new glasses.

10 comments:

Loving Annie said...

Eat really healthy consistently, Indigo - and you may be able to avoid getting diabetes...

Jackie Adshead said...

Look after your health, these are warnings, and are best listened to. Take care, of yourself.

nitebyrd said...

Stress and worry are killers. They just are. Indigo, heed the warnings you're getting and TRY to let go of some of your stress.

(((HUGS)))

Spiky Zora Jones said...

Indigo sweetie...I don't like the term "borderline diabetic" as there is no such thing. You either are or you are not.

I am Diabetic. Heredity...from mothers side of the family,six of my sisters are diabetic as well. I come from a family of 12...9 sisters and 3 brothers. One of my sisters has passed away,

Anyway...diet and exercise is the way. I am a diabetic-type 2. I was diagnosed about 7 years ago. I take meds twice a day. My sugar level is good...but I have to watch it...doing too much will make it drop and of course the bad food...make it climb.
know your food...not just sugar but carbs...start counting them. Like bread (I love bread) but they are high on carbs...so if I eat one extra bread...I just have to work out...I like the bedroom work out best. WOO.

If you like I saw something to help...It was on televison but I'm sure it's in the net...I wrote it down at home. I'll get it and send it tomorrow.

Take care weetie...and take care of yourself. You don't want to get to this point.

Hey, my friend george is a diabetic...he has been all of his life...he knows all there is about it. he is on my blogroll...he is a wonderful persson and he will help you if you want...he is that kind of man...just wonderful. He lives in Canada.

Ciao honey...I'll be back tomorrow with that info.

Indigo said...

Loving Annie~ yes I will try to. I thought about this the other day, I don't do take away. I can't stand chocolate, I don't eat cheese or drink coffee, I eat plenty fruit and fresh veg.. I do however like a few sweeties every now and again, so if I think I eat healthily on that... I'm hoping I'll be OK, but thank you for your support.

Indigo said...

Jackie~ yes the warning signs are here and I'm taking note of them. Thank you

Indigo said...

nitebryd~ Ah yes the " stress!" I have certainly had my share of that just lately. I am hoping to go to the doctors on Monday to try and sort out why, today after eating for most of the day, I have experienced shakes and giddiness for most of the afternoon. I have to admitt I am slightly ( very ) worried! But once again, you have come to my aid, thank you

Indigo said...

Spiky~ you say your family has the disease? Both my parents, although in their mid seventies, have diabetes's. So I guess I could be the next one? I've heard of 'hand-me-downs' but this is pushin it :-)))), although I'm not laughing , just kind of worried. But I will get it sorted, thanks hun.

Indigo said...

Spiky~ sorry to hear about your sister. I'm going to Canada next year for 3 weeks. Yes please any information is a great help. But first I have to find out how ' border line' I am. You never know O moght have dreampt it all up, maybe the doctor has it al wrong, it does happen.... finger's crossed.

Indigo said...

Spiky~ I have just learnt today that the Doctor had informed my brother that he is 'border line' diabetic. I shall go to the doctors on Monday and hopefully sort this query out. For my peace pf mind, I hope they are wrong.