Thursday, 1 April 2010

Naked Truth

Naked Truth.
of how I used to look. Tall, slim, tattooed bum! Picture on my arm, a snake from which a past relationship spun. This is who I was and this is who I am. My hair is no longer long, short and to the point. This is me... who I some times like, but of late I have fallen out, with the inner soul. You see I'm lost, temporally out of control. People usually blame the weather, but I got a feeling of what's at fault.
The doctor has ordered a blood test to figure it out. So a little prick as the nurse stuck it in, I never look, I can't. Next week I should get the results and find out why I feel the way I do. Aching joints, swollen thumb, sleepless night and all.
We have had some crap weather what with cold fronts and isobars.. I had to thaw out my hands before I could attack the car. I have closed my window to the crowd that persistently ask the questions " what's up?" I grin, lower my chin and walk away. I'm done being nice, I have nothing to add... this painful condition is driving me mad. The doctor Say's it might be Arthritis Ostio or some thing? He then adds or it might or could be rheumatoid blah blah blah .. not sure, I wasn't listening, he wasn't talkin out loud. So I did my bit for red. No doubt tomorrow my arm will turn black.... I'm at work Easter Friday... what joy! I some times wish I'd been born a boy!! My appetite has fallen, half a stone has disappeared, I'm trying hard not to worry...blah blah blah...

22 comments:

BamaTrav said...

Smile, God loves you!

Red Shoes said...

Hey you... I hope all is well... *huggles* I am thinking of you...

~shoes~

Indigo said...

BT ~ what ya mean god loves me? I am God :D !

Indigo said...

Red Shoes ~ Thanks you, finger's crossed ( if I could cross them) every thing's OK ..

xl said...

Sending best wishes your way!

PS: How tall are you? (I hope this is not a rude question.)

Secretia said...

You can look like that again if you try to. You looked pretty sexy there!

Secretia

Spiky Zora Jones said...

indigo: sweetheart I know you are concerned. But please be strong and brave. Your questions will be answered soon. You're going to be okay sweetie.

I just know.

And sweetie...you're still beautiful and sexy. You pick yourself up and you bring out your inner smile. Just like the one you bring out in me.

I'm sending you my best thoughts, my best energy...and my best kisses. xxxxxxxxxxx

Go to bed and youget a wonderful sleep baby. (((MWUAH)))

Dulce said...

HEy HUN!
Cheer up
We all change a bit- or a lot- with time... we all have our bad days, despite the weather... and blah, blah, blah... I guess you are talking more to yourself than to us. But a comment from a friend is always nice to see... or ain't it?

Hugs and smiles
;)
xoxox

viemoira said...

You + heating blanket and epson salt bath?! Not at the same time of course ... ;)
Feel better- you probably will once the weather clears up! :)

Gray said...

*hugs*

Please keep us posted, we all really do care.

Indigo said...

xl ~ I am 6' tall, my father's fault, he's 6'6" my brother 's 6'4"!

Indigo said...

Secretia ~ That was taken in Spain at a Villa 4 years ago...sexy ?

Indigo said...

Spiky ~ Thanks xxx

Indigo said...

Dulce ~ yeah this weather's depressing anough as it is, the cold aggrivates me joints even more..thank you xoxx

Indigo said...

viemoira ~ I'l give it a go thank you

Indigo said...

Gray ~ I know you all do, thank you and I will keep you all posted.

Indi

xx

xl said...

"I am 6' tall"

Excellent! I am 6' 1" so we could dance if the occasion presents itself! :)

Indigo said...

xl ~ yes we most certainly can ;)

Indi

x

Fire Byrd said...

Hey you will find what's wrong, then you can get some treatment. But more importantly when you know what's wrong then you can deal with it and the fear will go. I know that one!
Take care
x

The Savage said...

I'll do a proper post about the blog award tonight.
If I were a hot chick on a motorbike with an updated passport and the money to do so I'd have my arse in the UK looking you up.
Sadly, I'm a guy with no motorcycle who needs to update his passport and no money....

Indigo said...

The Savage ~ money isn't the be all and end all of life, bike or no bike I know you're a real nice guy, any time you get to come to England be sure to tell me, I'd be honoured to meet you,

Indi

xx

Indigo said...

Fire Byrd ~ thank you.. I have come to find that once the doc mentions a word to do with some kinda illness we as humans automatically convince ourselves we have it. I find that as the day goes on my fingers and toes aches more, gripping anything is hard work.


Indi

xx