Friday, 2 October 2009

Calmer Waters

Just to let you all know that after my heart wrenching story 'Instruments of destruction' last week, I've calmed down a hell of a lot-for how long I have no idea. Spiky-Jackie-UBS-Nitebyrd to name but a few have given me strength to regain my inwardly love that I'm missing from me, let alone the world, I can't take everyone on at once. I would like to THANK YOU all for your heart warming lovely loving comments that you wrote for me, some of which made me cry, but I think they were good tears .. tears being some thing that I rarely part with, even when I'm slicing my flesh up! Today at work I had the opportunity to go the whole hog and join the GALIPS union. A union that protects Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual & Transgender people from sexual discrimination.. also helping them to work in a safe environment, equal rights etc. I got a goody bag with rainbow coloured goodies in... actually the signing my name and ticking the box marked 'Gay' was more exciting than getting the goodies. I've come a hell of a long way recently, and what with my writing and how that has developed, I think I've chosen the right path in life, just need to find me a woman now! But I realise that should I never find a woman to share my world with, it doesn't matter, but I'll sure have fun looking. I want to get a step further with my writing, I must get in contact with Mia again, I know she's a busy lady what with her job. Tomorrow is a day not yet started and after a good nights sleep, my batteries hopefully recharged, I should start to regain my life back. I've felt bogged under of late, it's almost like my energy channels have got crossed, giving out negative energy, what with late nights and long days, this week has been extremely tiring. Some times it's like that, but I tend to think I can cope...I'm not getting any younger or so my Friends keep reminding me!! ;-). Monday is a day to get over with before it's started. I had some dis functional visual defects in my left eye, back in March- well actually it was behind my left eye. Any way after several trips to the eye hospital, having drops into both eyes that dilated the pupils, ( felt like my eye balls had been grated) having incredibly bright lights shone in them...as you can imagine I've had enough, but they have yet to find out what caused it in the first place. At my last appointment in September I was told by the specialist that a woman of 'my age' shouldn't be having haemorrhage's behind my eyes. That left me feeling slightly worried as you can well imagine. I had to have endless blood tests ( I hate needles) and a chest X-ray of which I get the result on Monday. I have absolutely no immediate worries at this stage of the game. I will however keep you all posted. So that's a catch up of me for the past !!!!!! months. I'm not going to write anything for a while, to tell you the truth, I've lost my erotic vibe of late. It's like that some times ...... but I will be back.

14 comments:

UBERMOUTH said...

Don't go. You don't have to write erotica and we will miss you too much!

I HATE it when you disappear like this, Indigo.

I think instead you should write whatever you want from the heart and nick my I Gotta Feelin' video to place on your own blog and listen to at the start of each day. :)

You are such a wonderful and special person and you'd do well to love yourself as much as we do you.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Indigo said...

UBS~ I'm not going away for good, just for a while, I'm exhausted physically and mentally. I'm so in Ore with all this love that you people keep telling me about n sending me. I went out today and purchased 'Black eyed peas' cd with that ' I got a feelin' I shall play it untl I've worn it out. I shall return eventually with the new born strength to write from my heart... I promise. Thank you UBS I really appreciate you for YOUxoxoxoxoxoxo

Topaz said...

I'm glad you're doing things to make you happy IRL - and whenever you're ready to write again, i'm ready to read.

Indigo said...

Topaz ~ Thank you for dropping by. It's hard some times trying to please my audience, then I forget about me. I look forward to writing again some day because I look forward to you reading them again... and I won't dissapoint you.

Spiky Zora Jones said...

Indigo: I know sweetie...I know wher eyou are in your head and how you feel with your body.

You are loved baby so always count on that. the love wil always be here when you need to come and dip inbto the well and refill your cup.

you do what you have to do...yeah, I'll stop by and say hi every onece in a while...please do me one favor...keep me (us) informed on your health...mental and physical.

So you sit back take those leathers off and...woo! And relax...baby, you just lean in on me.

xxxxoooxxoxoxoxox. you know I love you and remember you promised me a ride...on your bike too. :)
I know I'm being naughty...and can't help it.

xxxooo going your way.
Ciao honey.
PS...baby thank you for the card. (((MWUAH))) to you.

Indigo said...

Spiky ~ I was just about to go to bed, I've been up since 5a.m Friday, but it's now Sat morning n I need my zeds. I will keep you posted girly, I promise. I guess I should be thankful I have so many people that love me, it's me I have trouble in believing. You will one day get to ride on the back of my beast of a bike, that I do promise. And I love you my sweet.Goodnight or is it good morning? TC X

Xx_beautifulDISASTER_xX said...

i missd u writing for a few days..! DONT GO AWAY! haha.. i dnt care wat u write about, ur good at it n i enjoy reading it

Jackie Adshead said...

Sounds like you need a rest to recharge your batteries, and I'm delighted that my words helped you to gain strength.... When you're ready to write again, I'll be very happy to read ...

Indigo said...

Xx beautiful DISASTER xX ~ I just hope that when I decide to write some good stuff again, it's good enough for you to read. Thank you

Indigo said...

Jackie ~ I'm not yet ready, but I hope that when I am ready to do some real creative writing, it's good enough for you to enjoy. Thank you

I Wonder Wye said...

Indigo, love your nipple pic -- it's so sweet. I am sorry you are angsting. Feel free to borrow my motto when times are rough - this too, shall pass. I know, I know, it's not original. But it helps with the perspective. You take care.......

Indigo said...

I Wonder Wye ~ So you like my tit? Will do re your motto, thanks.

nitebyrd said...

Take care of yourself, hun. You've been through a lot lately and should take some time for yourself.

I'm sure you will find a woman who will appreciate what a beautiful person you are.

Indigo said...

nitebyrd ~ I'm fighting back the emotion here.Thank you so much for supporting me....