Tuesday, 27 October 2009

Pheonix Rising

I have come to the conclusion that some issues that I've had of late have weighed me down. I have done some soul searching and with a letter written and sent, I have managed to de-clog my head of these worrying thoughts that have eaten away at my soul. Now some times we get to the point of no return, we assume that this is is how it is... because we've moulded ourselves into thinking there isn't an answer or of there is, where the fuck is it? I think I've found the answer to that one. It wasn't easy and I still think I've possibly done it the wrong way, but it's done now, the more I think about what I said and how I worded it, I've got it clear in my mind that I was OK to do it like I did...(hope I'm making sense?) But as I've said, I'm one step closer to being 'ME' again, taking a different approach to life, enjoying that new approach..... in general going out there and finding some one to love me. I have a vacancy now. my ad goes some thing like this: One lady owner, strong of heart, easy loving, kind, generous, patient, understanding, adorable! I don't expect the phone to start ringing just yet, but I shall place the ad in a couple of worthy mags and see what happens. I have all the time in the world, I'm not going to rush into anything just yet, I've just got 'closure' from a relationship that happened some years ago. Yeah.. it's taken me this long .... but now I've completed full circle, the world is my oyster. I will rise from the ashes, I am a new born Phoenix and shall rise again. Watch this space.....

14 comments:

UBERMOUTH said...

I think all peoples' lives are a series of ups and downs, and we have to just learn to accept the downs as markers that make us appreciate the ups. For without the down how would we recognize an up? :)

I am glad you have renewed hope ,Indigo, for all that is not only possible ,but likely. :)

Indigo said...

UBS ~ Yeah I get that.Thanks hun

Shelly Rayedeane said...

Well I love the ad and this is a beautiful uplifting post. The only advice I would give ya is to just stick to friends right now. Build a good foundation and support system . Relationships come and go. The rest is priceless.

Just telling it like it is said...

First of all I would like to say nice nipplage...I would be brave and show mine if I wans'nt a nurse! I think you should go with your heart!! it will never lead you wrong...My heart has never lead me wrong and when I didn't listen to it I was sorry I didn't. You should have what you deserve...and that is that...stopping by by a mutual friend!!

Zee said...

I like how you are open about your thoughts and feelings..Good work

Indigo said...

Shelly Rayedeane ~ yeah will try and do that... Thanks

Indigo said...

Just telling it like it is ~ A nurse eh? A very rewarding job. I think you should show your nipple, Yes I'm going with my heart this time although in the past it has taken me on the wrong path, I'm taking different direction now, thank you for droppin in..

Indigo said...

Zee ~ thanks for droppin in... I think it is good to show 'feelings' it helps with the repair process, of which is a slow one at the moment, but I'm determined to get there, wherever that is. ;-)

Steve Levi, The Levi Store said...

iv been told that 'aura" is important..
apparently if we are longing for a specific person we create an aura of unavailability around us, and we dont meet anyone suitable..
but if we break ties totally with someone thats not going to be, our aura changes, and meeting someone becomes the normal course of events..
iv been told this, use it, dont use it.. put it to the test?
from me 2 you.

Indigo said...

Steve Levi,The Levi store ~ Thank youfrom me to you :-) I can well beieve that, I am still not in cantact with the past, that is history, I'm really feeling quite good inside, not sure about my aura though, am I glowing yet? x

Secretia said...

Newborn Phoenix! I like the sound and the implications. May I borrow that and become one too?

Thanks, I will! I love your blog.

Secretia

Indigo said...

Secretia ~ please do use it and join me in becoming a new born Pheonix .. I'm so happy that you love my blog, your's rocks too..

Spiky Zora Jones said...

indigo. baby...I've been there honey. the clouds came and it began to rain...a biblical rain. :) But the breeze blew the clouds away and the sun came out...and I smiled.

This will happen to you too. Just wait and see. Just be yourself and let it happen.

laater sweets. xxx


you are I know things have seemd kindmay seem dark at times but remember the light that is in you.

let thaat light show

Indigo said...

Spiky ~ Yeah I think my light has temperarily gone out, but given time I know.. I hope it will re light.xoxoxoxo thanks babe later.