Today I learnt some thing that I guess I already knew but had slipped from the front of my mind. My daughter and I have been getting along better than in the past. Whether or not it's because she's grown up due to the fabulous job she's just managed to land with the best law firm in the UK. Any how she'd had a fall out with her boyfriend so decided to take it out on me..nothing new there then, but I have broad shoulders so I can cope with the verbal abuse! But should she ever decide to 'lamp' me one, I'd never give it a second thought to knock her lights out!
Any how she has a male friend who has decided to join the firm that I work for.. the Prison service.. yeah you guessed it.. where I actually work. She then told me that she has concerns that he may put two and two together and figure out that his friend (my daughter) has a 'gay' mother. So I have come to believe she is and has always been 'ashamed' of me?! Like I said earlier I have broad shoulders so I can take it. I can't imagine how I would feel if I found out my Mother was gay. Looking in on the situation from a different angle I don't know the answer to this. My daughter is 24 soon, a grown woman (still my little girl) I have no intention of broadcasting my sexuality at work, I did that just before Christmas last year.. she thinks just a couple of my friends know this fact about me. I didn't tell her the whole truth ( I have so many secrets) my head could blow at any moment! Any way I feel that this has nothing to do with her, chances are that once her male friend figures out how tough it is working in a Prison, long shift patterns, danger and all the shit that goes with the job, I'm guessing he won't be there long enough to figure anything out about anyone. AND if he does decide to stay then, I guess she'll have to grow up some more! I some times feel like I'm doing time for a crime of passion but haven't actually committed any 'crime!' Life's a bitch then ya wake up n realise it wasn't a dream after all!!!!!!