Friday, 4 December 2009

Closure

It's been a long and some times emotional year. I never really had closure on an event that happened some years ago. Over the past couple of months I have however come to realise that I can now actually move on. I have moved on. I feel so much better, whole again. My spiritual being is now complete. My smile has returned, my energy levels can now operate 100%. I've also had a good clear out. It's funny how we tend to hold on to stuff that we don't really need. I had several paintings that had too many memories so I did the necessary, gave them a good burial- in the dustbin! It felt good to de clutter my life.. rid the past to make room for the future. So should the person who I'm talking about happen to read this short story, you'll possibly realise that I HAVE left you. I aint coming back. It's obvious that you're not interested in my well being and personally I don't give a sh*t. So here's to my future .. I know it's going to be good. I have so many things planned. I have a tattoo to plan, a new leg to look forward to. Now that I know I haven't got anything wrong with my breast, I've had the all clear I can move on...'sigh of relief.' Five days off at Christmas, time to relax with my family & friends. In fact I will be very busy going to parties just before Christmas, time to meet new people and have a ball. I don't need to reflect on the past any more .. that is history. I am off to Canada next June for three weeks .. I can't wait. Time flies, it'll soon be here. So let me take this opportunity to say an early 'HAPPY CHRISTMAS' to every one in blog land, yeah I know it's three weeks away but I'm getting my greeting in first. May you all have a wicked & non Vanilla yule tide wherever you are.

16 comments:

Secretia said...

Indigo, I am so very happy that you made out good at the doctor.

Now start your "new life" free of the old emotional pain, and really enjoy yourself. Do all that pleases you!

Secretia

nitebyrd said...

I don't need to reflect on the past any more .. that is history

It's good you're putting it where it belongs - in the past. Forge ahead, girl! Have fun, drink wine and find your heart's desire. WOOHOO!

Happy Christmas to you, beautiful!

Indigo said...

Secretia ~ yeah was painful havin my breast squeezed but the result was excellent. I can now move forward. I need to watch the future, watch were I'm going not where I've been. THANK YOU

Indigo said...

nitebyrd ~ It's in the trash where all the belongings I once had.. are now, from here on I'm going one place n that's is where I've never been before forward into another dimension.And a Joyful and prosperous new year my lovely..

autumn said...

what a wonderful post! i feel what you're saying so much. i read it, and read it again. it's been over a year since my breakup with the ex bf, and even though i've truly never been happier, there's such truth in what you're saying here. sometimes it's so hard to let it all fall away.

i'm so glad your lump ended up being a false alarm. (((hugs))) i found a lump in june, only it wasn't on my boobie, it was *inside me*. i had to first tell my doctor that i found it while masturbating (that was fun...lol) and then waited 4 months for an ultrasound. it's all clear. yay us!!!

so you're visiting my fair country in june? not sure where you're going, but there is great natural beauty here and i hope you enjoy it.

xoxo
loves autumn

UBERMOUTH said...

That's the spirit It's called 'the past' for a reason. :)

What part of Canada are you going to?

Merry pre Christmas to you and your healthy breasts, too. :)

viemoira said...

Hope you have a Merry Christmas and a wonderful new beginning with the new year!

Indigo said...

autumns ~ Our minds collect so much crap over the years that when we seperate from who ever, it's like trying to defrost the frezzer, we keep chipping away at it... Best thing to do is just chuck boiling water on the whole thing and melt it off. Ya get my drift.. I'm guessing your doctor wasn't female? Oh my that must have been embarrasing to say the least.But you're better and that's all that counts. Yes Cananda next June in Winnipeg-Portis le praire.I hear the autumn weather and colour is a treat. I much prefer sunshine to snow..can't ski for toffee. Loves Indigo oxoxo

Indigo said...

UBS ~ Thank you ..so does that mean I can have a pre Christmas drink or five? ;). Winnipeg Central Cananda in the sunshine, so I'm looking forward to lots on tan, warm skin.. great folk and by all accounts large meals? I don't eat large meals....:)

Indigo said...

viemoira ~ Thank you and I hope your new year brings you all that you desire... here's to 2010 and success xoxo

greekwitch said...

I hope the new year will bring you everything you wish for and the past will be just memories, that you do n't cause pain any more.
Brightest blessings!

Indigo said...

greekwitch ~ yeah that just about sums it up. I hope you too can have all that you want in the new year and ahead of today. I've had my share of pain just lately. Thank you

Red Shoes said...

Wonderful post... I could have written many parts of this myself... What a cleansing of the Soul that is... when we are able to leave some of our pain behind... How empowering that is... Peace to you, Indigo... :o)

Just telling it like it is said...

I often clean out the cobwebs in my head...and let me tell ya there are a couple...good for you! and happy to know your smiling...Hugs

Indigo said...

Red Shoes ~ thanks for walkin this way.Thank you .. yes peace to you to my friend :)

Indigo said...

Just telling it like it is ~ Tis good to dust! clear out the cobwebs.. I had a few more than a couple... but am all done now, just caught the hugs thanks :) hugs backatchya babe