Closure

It's been a long and some times emotional year. I never really had closure on an event that happened some years ago. Over the past couple of months I have however come to realise that I can now actually move on. I have moved on. I feel so much better, whole again. My spiritual being is now complete. My smile has returned, my energy levels can now operate 100%. I've also had a good clear out. It's funny how we tend to hold on to stuff that we don't really need. I had several paintings that had too many memories so I did the necessary, gave them a good burial- in the dustbin! It felt good to de clutter my life.. rid the past to make room for the future. So should the person who I'm talking about happen to read this short story, you'll possibly realise that I HAVE left you. I aint coming back. It's obvious that you're not interested in my well being and personally I don't give a sh*t. So here's to my future .. I know it's going to be good. I have so many things planned. I have a tattoo to plan, a new leg to look forward to. Now that I know I haven't got anything wrong with my breast, I've had the all clear I can move on...'sigh of relief.' Five days off at Christmas, time to relax with my family & friends. In fact I will be very busy going to parties just before Christmas, time to meet new people and have a ball. I don't need to reflect on the past any more .. that is history. I am off to Canada next June for three weeks .. I can't wait. Time flies, it'll soon be here. So let me take this opportunity to say an early 'HAPPY CHRISTMAS' to every one in blog land, yeah I know it's three weeks away but I'm getting my greeting in first. May you all have a wicked & non Vanilla yule tide wherever you are.

Black Thunder

I'd like to introduce you all to my brand new motorbike. She's aptly named 'Black Thunder.'

She's a Yamaha FJR 1300. Her number plate is DXO8OOF. I

haven't actually got her yet, I collect her on July 12th, and I can't wait to show her the roads, sit astride her magnificent body and feel the vibrations between my thighs!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm almost sure we'll have many many years of fun, I shall take great care of her, show her the ropes, so to speak... and pick up some pillion passengers along the way... for sure. Just think.... hot women clad in 'black leather' from head to toe, holding onto me around my waist, fearless of nothing......'oh boy' YES we're going have alot of 'wicked' fun!!!!!!! So what do you reckon to my new toy? beats any hand held rabbit vibrator..in my eyes anyway... this has class, this has style, she goes so fucking fast, I'm bound to smile!!

One step forward, two steps back.

It can get pretty lonely out on the road when I'm running. A lot of people like to run with head phones and some crazy music filling their heads. I've come to the conclusion that this can't be safe! For instance what if some one was to come up behind them and jump them, they wouldn't hear them coming. I've actually tried running with the dreaded ear phones but my ears are of some awful creation, 'spock' ears I think so what ever variety of head gear, I find they fall out, resulting in my losing my temper, having to stop re-place them and carry repeating this damn process every so many hundreds of yards... thanks, but no thanks!! I find that when I do eventually get time to go running I can put the world to rights in my head. Some times I'll just watch the country side go by. Actually it's quite amazing how much of the country side I do see when on two feet. I think more people should ditch the car and either walk, run or cycle to work. We miss so much beauty when stuck in a petrol guzzling vehicle, we had feet way before the car was invented, we're spoilt! I love running. I've always had that wicked side to me, was always interested in sports at school, running, swimming, I can recall doing hurdles on sports day in hi school, tripped and fell full length on the track, was so embarrassing, for me anyway, everybody else laughed their heads off.. typical!
Any how, as I was saying, I live and breath running now, got the bug again, just need some sunshine to help me along. I went for a run last night after work, I couldn't get my breathing sorted, felt like I was going to faint, then realising I was going to fast, slowed down, problem solved. I some times forget I'm not competing for gold. Time will sort me out. Am planning on going for another run on Friday night, assuming the snow doesn't arrive, forecast for the weekend or so the weathermen say.. best get wrapped up then. I'll have to be careful or I'll be buying 'runners world' magazine's next.
I love the cold feeling when I'm first starting out, then when I get relaxed and in running mode, I can see the road ahead, keep my eye on the traffic. These people are a law unto themselves, not only do they not see runners, or motor bikers come to that, I should know as I ride one and on many occasion have almost been knocked off. I'd hate to be on a horse!! Fucking idiots motorists!!!! Peace and tranquility are the two most important ingredients to me and I find both of these when I'm treading the high ways and by ways of the country. Long may we reign..Watch out you fuckin morons in cars...watch where you're going, it aint rocket science!!!!!!!!