Saturday, 21 August 2010

Pain

You think I don't feel?
For every time you shout
abuse at me, every word
digs in so fuckin deep.
I am who I am, it's
taken me 30 years to
get this far, I don't
need your pain, I
carry my own. My
heart is not strong
my nerves are not
steel.. I feel your
pain, I know what
you're going thru.'
You will gain my
respect when I get
it from you. Each
sentence you speak
fills me with guilt.
I am like a flower
out of water, I wilt.
I am not strong like
I try to make out.
Bite your tongue,
'cuz one day I may
just lash out.
Violence goes
against my belief.
I can not take
anymore.. but I
will not be leaving.
If you do not
quit, I will back
your bags, throw you
out.............
and not say good
bye. Grow up, stop
having this tantrum.
I am the adult here
I will not stand
for your words
of hate... I am
who I am.. Live
with it or go.
I can not and
WILL NOT take
any more crap.
I am your Mother
Love me or leave.
I no longer wear
my heart on my
sleeve.. you
ripped that
off, my heart
is broken. I
can't bare to
share the air
your breathe.
You get my
drift...?
I am me..
I finally got
to where I
needed to be.
It's not been
easy, as you
can see.!!

8 comments:

Beryl said...

hugs...

Playfully Yours said...

Very deep.....
hugs
PY

UBERMOUTH said...

Very real and raw. You ARE strong though,even if at times you forget that.

And thank God you are who you are for I like you just fine exactly as you are,my friend.

Red Shoes said...

We reach a time when we've become aware we've had all we can stand... We DO have to become our own caretakers...

*huggles*

I do understand...

~shoes~

Indi said...

Beryl ~ thank you

Indi

x

Indi said...

Playfully Yours ~ It's so deep it hurts

Indi

xx

Indi said...

UBS~ Pity yu're not my mother, we'd get on so well... thank you, I SO needed some reassurance here

Indi

xx

Indi said...

Red Shoes ~ Thank you, all I need to do now is put in into practice, fingers crossed I come out the other side unscathed.

Indi

xx