Sunday, 22 August 2010

Identity

Description:-
6'tall
Slim.
short blond
hair. Striking
blue eyes..
wicked glint,
crooked teeth..
soon to be
straight.
Check
my finger,
third on the
left, I wear
a gold ring,
proof I said
'Yes.'
Yes to the
marriage of
a man I actually
love.. he's happy
with who I am,
and all of the
above. Some
days I am
overflowing
with so much
confidence..
but just lately
I've been feeling
totally fucked
in the head, so
I like women
in my bed, he's
OK with that.
This has nothin
to do with any-one
else.. like I
said. But I intend
on havin another
chat with the man
in my life, I
being the so
called 'mother'
and his long term
wife. I have
a fabulous friend
who did Family
law you know,
she's givin my
such much appreciated
advice that should,
when put into
practice let the
selfish daughter
know I mean
business.. So
I now know what
I have to do..
It isn't going
to be easy..but
I have to stay
strong.. and if
you don't know
who I am, actually
know ME, then you'll
see this isn't
actually wrong.
I've taken the
opportunity to
get out on my
bike.. but I've
had this thunderous
headache... stress!
It hasn't ruined
my day.. I will
not let her
break me down..
I'm going to do
this MY WAY!!
But first I have
to chat with the
man I love with
all my heart,
I can not condone
what he has done,
we all took part.
Parents we were
parents we are..
but there comes
a time when we
have to stand
back.. but
care from afar.
I'm not quite sure
I love her right
now.. and not
with added regret
but she is being
fuckin awkward..
all in her
fathers interest!

14 comments:

Christiejolu said...

I am glad you are taking the steps to fix your marriage...I wish I could offer some sort of advice for you for your daughter...My daughters are still babies...So I can not give advice on something I know nothing about...I have said she should have respect...My mother and I have never had a good relationship...But I have respect for her...She gave birth to me and raised me...She should do the same...

恩宛玲如 said...

期待你的下次更新喔^____^..................................................

The Savage said...

Sometimes you have to cut the cord...

nitebyrd said...

Indi, while children are wonderful at times, they are the bane of our existence at others. I had horrible fights with my daughter before she was married. There were many times I thought, "Who the fuck is this person?" I'm having, not fights with my son, but I am constantly questioning my parenting abilities when he does, says some of the things he does. My ex is also the type that doesn't want to "rock the boat" for fear his children will HATE him. It is soul-sucking and exhausting to try to remain strong. We forget that our children are also people as they never even think that we are people, not just parents. While it may hurt us greatly and be an incredibly difficult thing to do, we HAVE to treat them as people. Hard lessons must be learned by them otherwise, they will continue to break our spirits. That's not a good thing - it hurts us and doesn't do a damn thing for their characters. If your husband can't get on board, stand firm and do what you need to do to preserve YOU!

(((hugs)))

Red Shoes said...

In my marriage, the kids bore the brunt of issues with their Mother... and the issues between their Mother and myself... I really can't blame them for the issues they have because in part, I'm responsible...

I do love them however...

~shoes~

Beryl said...

I'm glad to hear things sound like they are moving on track!

hugs!!!

Indi said...

Christiejolu~ She started the ball rolling, I'm just guiding it out the door.. I have respect for my elders... think she lost hers a long time back. Thank you and good luck for you when you daughters grow up...

Indi

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Indi said...

Oriental person ~ translated into English please...


Indi

Indi said...

Savvy ~ Or her blood supply!

Indi

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Indi said...

nitebyrd ~ It is soul destroying when one parent is trying to do one thing whilst the other half is burying his head in the sand! I have thrown away the sharp objects.. I beginning to think I don't even care about what 'she' thinks anymore.. and when she's out with friends or my parents visiting, she's so polite! Who could ever imagine her to be the bitch she is to me. Thanks.. I'll keep you all posted.

Indi

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Indi said...

Red Shoes ~ We do our damdest as parents.. but I often wonder where we went wrong!

Indi

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Indi said...

Beryl ~ well I think they are *smile*

Indi

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UBERMOUTH said...

Crack some heads, I say. :)

Indi said...

UBS ~ And snap tha main brace? Oh this is fun.....


Indi

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