Tuesday 13 December 2011

Void

Never say never.
I remember the
first time I
saw you. My
heart yelled
out with Joy.
I think I
should 'av
been born
a boy.
Halloween
dressed
all in one
skeleton
bones. I
never
forgot
that night.
I can still
see it now.
From then
til now..
I loved
you so
much, gave
my every-
thing as
always.
The kiss,
oh yeah
that KISS!
Should
never have
happened
ya know.
But it all
came together
as it always
does.. as
usual I
gave what
I've needed
to give, you
wanted to know
I delivered
the goods.
From that
day it's been
going down
hill ever
since. I
never felt
the same about
you. I said
I didn't love
you the same
as I used to
do........
..........
..........
I lied!
I couldn't
go on, so
I pushed
you away.
So there
you have it,
I did it
for me, for
my sanity.
I couldn't
cope with
us..you..
me. It
didn't
feel right.
I have
no idea
how I am
meant to
feel...
I have
to live
with this
empty void.
But I'm
safe because
I know you
won't read
this blog.
Deleted..
barred...
Gone.

2 comments:

nitebyrd said...

Some things are best left lost, hun. Fill the void with some other thoughts. (((hugs)))

Indi said...

nitebyrd ~ Thank you for my Christmas card babe, sorry but I'm not organised this year.... will write to you some time in the new year. Love ya lady and thank you for readin all my stuff here in blog land, another year over almost... a rocky road for many of us...


Indi XX