Wednesday 17 November 2010

Where to now?

OK so I don't wanna kick any one's ass.
I'm still not sure where I'm actually at.
Should I stay or should I leave, do I
still wear my heart on my sleeve?
I have no words to describe how I
feel right now.. but numb springs
to mind. Running scared, that's
what I think I am...no excuses,
no reason why.. maybe it's my
age.. god knows I could cry.
Last week I had 7 needles
plunged into my skin ...
twenty minutes later..
went shopping! I have
to admit it didn't hurt.
I have to go for more
of this... just to be
sure. My chest hasn't
stopped hurtin, if
anything..it's worse!
I used to be a nicotine
addict, god knows how
often I've tried.. failed
beet myself up, weak..
no praise there. I had
my last 'fag' last
Friday.. so far so
good, but it's early
days. I'm really quite
concerned, this pain
in my chest and why
it hurts.. I still
have no words to
speak... see how
I feel ..........
.next week.....!

8 comments:

Red Shoes said...

Hey you... if it will make you feel any better... I will share my age with you!! Then I assure you that you will feel better!!! :oD

Seriously though... things will be ok... *huggles*

~shoes~

Indi said...

RS ~ What year were you born?

Indi

nitebyrd said...

Take care of yourself, Indi. If the needles are helping then go again. (((gentle HUGS)))

I'm very proud of you for quitting smoking. I need to be that determined.

Indi said...

Nitebyrd ~ Life sucks at the moment, I have another appointment for more needles...Hm what Joy!

Indi


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Spiky Zora Jones said...

what has your doctor said of the pain in your chest? If nothing...keep at him. there is a reason for pain...make sure y9outake care of it.

good for you babe. No smoking since last Friday...that is awesome. I very proud of you. ;)

later baby. (((MWUAH)))

Indi said...

Spiky ~ The physio said it was muscle in between my ribs that were damaged.! I now find that when I breathe it hurts more, so as you can imagine that is why I've given up smoking !! I think I've frightened myself into thinking it's killing me ... literally! I'm going back docs hopefully today... should I be able to get it, failing that next week. Thanks


Indi


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red.neck chic said...

Hi...

I owe you an apology - you complimented me on my test blog and I didn't discover it 'til yesterday! Thank You! ;-D

I've been reading some of your previous posts - and I'm so sorry you are in such pain. My thoughts are with you while you're at the doctor's today... and I'm sending you big Texas-sized hugs.

My normal "fix it" is duct tape - I can send you some... it will at least get a "giggle" out of you - I promise! ;-D

Take care of you...
robelyn

Indi said...

red.neck chic ~ I like what you do for a living, I can imagine the articles you find and what history they come with, who''shearts they've touched and then you pass them on to new owners.. I like that idea. I stayed in Houston Texas when I wwas 16.. loved every minute of it. Any way... I shall be back to check out your blog ;) Duct tape eh? I could have loadsafun with that idea ! A kinda torture .. leg waxing for men? Thank you for coming by


Indi


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