Friday, 20 November 2009

Reality

I am.
I always was and
I always will be.
I can cry, but I won't
I can hurt, but I can't
I can't let myself.
I felt the pain...
I invented pain.
I never knew it
would be like this.
Deadwood drifting,
blue skies, grey.
Eyes all blurred,
I laugh now, but
what can I say...
.................
One word springs to
mind..............
..................
Oh yeah..here it is.
...................
'GOODBYE.'

26 comments:

BamaTrav said...

*Watches silently in a chair in the corner*

Indigo said...

Bama Trav ~ Do you watch with the light off ?

BamaTrav said...

As long as the curtins are open and light is shining in from the street lights.

Indigo said...

Bama Trav ~Am with ya on that one.

Spiky Zora Jones said...

You can smile
If you let yourself
You can laugh
If you hear a funny

Laughter can come on a bright and sunny day.

Laughter can come on grey and cold day.

But what they have in common is not haart to see...you.

Smile and laugh sweetie.
Live life...laugh everyday. It's a sin not to. :)
have a fabulous weekend honey. xx

Indigo said...

Spiky ~ I used to grin, but I thought it was a sin. I smoke n that's a joke. Yeah I will be more positive, I will smile when it's pissing it down,n it's doin a lot of that right now. You have an ace weekend to babe, now I smile big time when I think of you on the back of my beast of a bike ;-0 xxx

BamaTrav said...

Laughter
laughter
All I hear or see is laughter
Laughter
laughter
Laughing at my cries
Fix me!

UBERMOUTH said...

I had a fish....LOL

UBERMOUTH said...

I shall know you're all better when it's two words.....

Fuck you!!!

:)

Just telling it like it is said...

That's deep...
Did I mention I liked your nipple?

Indigo said...

Bama Trav ~ All I can feel is pain or is it anger that hurts? I am or am I ?

Indigo said...

UBS ~ So you had a fuckin fish!

Indigo said...

Just Telling it like it is ~ Yeah I'm so deep I can't get out. Yeah you did mention you liked my nipple, but I don't mind you keep mentioning it every now and again.

Indigo said...

UBS ~ Those two little words, you'll be the first to know...

Just telling it like it is said...

Indigo: Please make an appointment with a gyno...something that you feel differently on your breast is alarming to me...especially if it is warm to the touch...it could be something simple like a bacteria infection...but you have lymph nodes under your arm...could be a sign of infection some where or mastitis. Pain let's us know something is wrong...Please keep me up to date and promise me that you get that checked on

Just telling it like it is said...

ASAP

Secretia said...

Deadwood drifting, causing no ripples. Peaceful like that I think. Nice writing you did!

Secretia

Indigo said...

Just telling it like it is ~ Yes mastitis had crossed my mind too. I will make an appointment on Monday, hopefully see a lady doctor.. It feels like I've been weight training on my left side, like it's firm, warm n tender. I was told a couple of years ago when I had the similar problem but with both breasts. My doc sent me for a mamogram, result:- I have painful breasts.. that was the result ;-(.Thank you, I will keep you posted.xx

Indigo said...

Secretia ~ You fill me with warm, your comments light the candle of hope.. I see it flicker in the mist, but it never dies..thank you

Indigo said...

Just telling it like it is ~ Yes will do ASAP.. promise.

BamaTrav said...

I must have missed something. Hope all goes well. My mom has had breast cancer a long time ago and it has now re-appeared in her spine. It has been held at bay so far. She is 76.

Indigo said...

Bama Trav ~ Your mum will be in my thoughts and in my prayers, as you will be. To have this trauma, to live this pain... be strong my friend

Kitty Moore said...

I liked this. A lot.

Indigo said...

Kitty Moore ~ I'm so glad you like it, and alot too .. thank you.

Just telling it like it is said...

Okay thanks...
I just am really passionate about my friends and the health of their breast!! Take care and let me know how it all works out!
and...what a cookoo Dr. There is not a diagnosis that say pain full boob syndrome...you can e-mail me privately if you would like...it's on my blog page! Huggs!

Indigo said...

Just telling it like it is ~ Yeah I guess I was just beleiving it, painful breast syndrome... I'm just the patient, who am I to believe. The antibiotics are more like horse pills, they're massive. I want to blog about it, but what with my leg surgery on Christmas Eve, I think that is enough medical symptoms for now. I really appreciate you caring an all... you're a star & a friend.xx