Monday, 17 October 2011

Drownin

Time for me.
Stop giving
start lovin
myself. Those
are the words
from my mentor.
This is very
difficult for
me. I'm a fish
sign..at this
moment in time
I'm a fish that
feels like she
is drowning.
For anyone
who knows me,
they will
understand,
and if ya
don't then
tough shit.
Shit can be
a good thing,
cow shit on
ya roses..
shit on the
souls of ya
shoes...not
so good..I
aint talkin
with no one
or is proper
English..I
aint talkin
to anyone
right now.
I gotta give
me time..
could take
weeks.....
months....
years....!!
I can't rush
how I feel..
but since I
gave up talkin
to anyone I
feel shit loads
better... it's
a long story.
Aint goin there.
It would mean
talkin 'n' like
I said..I'm done
talkin.. gotta
have ME time.
I come first,
not second
or last. I have
to think about
what I want..
need..and until
I've figured
that out... I
aint by no
means talkin!
Textin! E mailin
nothin...!!
So if ya
feelin left
out.. just
try n imagine
how I feel..
I just gotta
figure out
now how I
should feel.
Apart from
a drowning
fish outta
water..!!!!
Ooooow...I
just wanna
SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAM!!!!!

12 comments:

Red Shoes said...

One ALWAYS has to take care of him/her self!! Always...

Always...

~shoes~

nitebyrd said...

Keep treading water, Indi. You'll get it right. People will always offer advice/words but you have to work it out for yourself. No one knows you better than you.

And remember, you do have life preservers - your friends. (((hugs)))

UBERMOUTH said...

You're such a kind, brace and sensitive soul. I hate to see you suffering, Indi.

UBERMOUTH said...

* brave. :)

nixabn said...

I'll be here. xoxo

Indi said...

Red Shoes ~ this is all to me... I tend to mother everyone else...but I am going to make an effort..


Indi

Indi said...

nitebyrd ~ I'm not very good at treadin water... thank you hun...



Indi


x

Indi said...

UBS ~ wow am I? I am suffrin, but enough is enough...no more mrs nice lady.... if it doesn't involve me.... comin first, treatin me to flowers.... saying no to anyone I want to say no to... then let the battle commence


Indi


x

Indi said...

UBS ~ Brave? I don't think so


Indi

Indi said...

nixabn ~ 'ello my lover... I'm so glad you're back. I need you to hold my hand...will ya?


Indi


xoxo

nixabn said...

Yes, I will hold your hand. XO That's what friends are for.

Indi said...

nixabn ~ A problem shared is a problem halved.... hold me tightly...don't lose your grip


Indi


xx