Drownin

Time for me.
Stop giving
start lovin
myself. Those
are the words
from my mentor.
This is very
difficult for
me. I'm a fish
sign..at this
moment in time
I'm a fish that
feels like she
is drowning.
For anyone
who knows me,
they will
understand,
and if ya
don't then
tough shit.
Shit can be
a good thing,
cow shit on
ya roses..
shit on the
souls of ya
shoes...not
so good..I
aint talkin
with no one
or is proper
English..I
aint talkin
to anyone
right now.
I gotta give
me time..
could take
weeks.....
months....
years....!!
I can't rush
how I feel..
but since I
gave up talkin
to anyone I
feel shit loads
better... it's
a long story.
Aint goin there.
It would mean
talkin 'n' like
I said..I'm done
talkin.. gotta
have ME time.
I come first,
not second
or last. I have
to think about
what I want..
need..and until
I've figured
that out... I
aint by no
means talkin!
Textin! E mailin
nothin...!!
So if ya
feelin left
out.. just
try n imagine
how I feel..
I just gotta
figure out
now how I
should feel.
Apart from
a drowning
fish outta
water..!!!!
Ooooow...I
just wanna
SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAM!!!!!