Wednesday 8 December 2010

''Fucked.........''

I'm in Limbo, not knowing.
Yesterday it came from out
of now where.. Yes I got a
job, but for how long I
don't know. Christmas
will be fun, by January
I might be well n truly
hung!! My job is on the
line.. so how do I feel?
Good question, after
several large glasses
of red wine... I'm
surprised I can still
type, let alone see
the keyboard.... hick!
I can only hang on and
see what the new year
will bring. I want to
stay optimistic.. but
daren't hold my breath.
I now the economic climate
is basically 'FUCKED!' And
by all accounts... me too!!
I am a worker, not a
shirker, spelling I've
given up, ya remember?
My future's totally
FUCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!
Uncertainty isn't
good for the soul,
I know I'm down in
the fuckin dumps, but
this red stuffs keepin
me on the up n up...
Coconut ice any one?
I've really lost the
plot now, slurp!!nod!
Smile.. blurred..
vision, WHAT??
So next time some
one asks how I am..
I might burst into
hysterical laughter
just in case... but
inside I'm feeling
empty. Don't get me
wrong I love
my job..cleanin the
shit of toilet
seats is really
quite rewarding.
Now it's my turn to
be 'shat' upon..
I have to laugh,
cuz if I don't I
mite just cry....
So for all these
years I've given
my all... this is
the thanks I get..
Bummer... I want
to go home...........!

14 comments:

red.neck chic said...

it's okay to cry... an uncertain future is scarier than hell.

and I have no words of wisdom for you, nor will I offer any cliche's - but I do hold you in my thoughts and prayers dear Indi. and I'm always here if you need an ear...

or another glass of wine.

xoxo
robelyn

The Savage said...

Hugs...

nitebyrd said...

Indi, you have every right to be angry, afraid, sad, scared, etc. and every right to get pissed. I'm going to hold good thoughts for you and add your name to the prosperity candle I light each week.

(((hugs))) my friend.

Red Shoes said...

Indi... you do what you need to do, will be optimistic for you... *hugs*

~shoes~

Playfully Yours said...

Uncertainty, sucks. Keep your head maybe things will turn around.

PY

Indi said...

red.neck chic ~ smiling today, emotions were raw today, anger I think in the way of almost tears. Thank you babe, not on the wine today... but this weekend? for sure!!


Indi

x

Indi said...

Savvy ~ thanks hun, much appreciated

Indi

xx

Indi said...

nitebyrd ~ One of the women in our dept has been going through the same process as I am about to go thru... I now know how she's been feelin for the past 2 months.. It aint nice.... shit happens, nothin is ever set in stone. Thank you sweet pea

Indi

xxx

Indi said...

RS ~ I intend keeping my spirits up, including the liquid variety! It's out of my hands now, whatever will be will be... nothing else for me to do.. thank you


Indi

xx

Indi said...

PY ~ I have to stay calm, build my inner strengths..thank you

Indi


xx

Red Shoes said...

Hey you... I hope things are better today... and that some other solution appears before you...

~shoes~

Indi said...

RS ~ Thank you, I've tried to stay calm but I've had a stonking head for couple days, almost like a hangover but without the alcohol... stress I'm thinkin, think my problem apart form being human, I think too much.


Indi

xx

Don't I Know You? said...

Uncertainty isn't
good for the soul,


Agreed.

But.

Learning to live with uncertainty — that's good for the spirit of living.

And.

It's a hard lesson to learn. Flat Stanley is much better at it than she used to be. And it's always easier to think you're living well with uncertainty when you're comfortable.

Sorry you're having to go through this and wish you confidence and freedom.

Indi said...

Don't I know you? ~ I understand you in all that you tell me, at last a woman who know's what to say without treddin on my toes or comin out with some past it's self by date cliche..

Indi

xx