Sunday, 2 November 2008

Descending

Afew weeks ago, I fell head over heels in love. The first time in a very long time. Time to take it easy again; Last week I drank too much red wine; a good full bodied red wine none the less-opened up and declared that I love her. Now if you've ever watched The L word, Alice tells Dana she loves her and she pretty much got the same reply... or not... as I did. In return I got a kiss on the cheek and a hug?!..
I have to admit I was kind of expecting the same reply as the line I just shot ' I love you too Honey... or babe.' I spent most of the last week thinking I'd blown the whole story, my love life taking off and now coming back to earth with a big THUD!! I get very insecure at times and the menopause aint helpin a great deal either. Any way .. I decided to cool things a little, try and not rush it.. play the game a different way. Behave like it was no big deal even though I was fallin apart inside. I sent less text's, although I wanted to bombard her with text's. The whole of last week couldn't go fast enough for me. Every day I was waiting for my mobile to sing to me, waiting for her name to appear; no it didn't happen. SO... Friday I decided that maybe I'd frightened her off by rushing it- I sent her a message saying when could I see her again? To my surprise she said Saturday night, 'Oh and bring your tooth brush with you babe.' My heart lept from off the ground and is now sitting back where it was on cloud 9... well almost.. roughly cloud 7. Love can be a turbulent at the best of times, and I shouldn't expect every one to be like me.
Wednesday night is the next time I will get to hold her again, kiss her soft sweet flesh, play footsie with my fingers over the back of her hands, look all googly eyed at her... be happy again.
I guess you could say we're still in the 'Honeymoon period' all mouths and hands; not that I'm complaining of the 'all' mouths n hands!! Next Sunday evening we're off to the local Gay Bar in town, some where where we can be accepted, be who we are, relax in a enviroment made for gays.. soft lighting, wicked music, a whole new bunch of friends we've made. Why can't the planet be like this place? Why can't we be accepted for being different? Am all for Gay Rights.
So every thing's ok again, for now anyhow.

10 comments:

nitebyrd said...

Whew! You got me scared there for a minute. Maybe backing off a bit was a good thing. She missed you!

Have lots of fun at the bar. You're not different, you're in love. ;)

Indigo said...

Hey that sounds so much better nitebyrd... yeh... I'm not different am I... I'm in love. Been a long time since I was that!!

Fire Byrd said...

And what's more being in love transcends sexuality. Cause as a hetero woman I could have written this about my last love.
Hope it goes well foryou hon. Thanks for checking out my book.

Indigo said...

fire byrd~ thank you for dropping by

Trixie said...

Here I am wishing all the best for the two of you...cause it really is hard to find 'the one' I hope you've found her hon.

Indigo said...

Trixie~ yeah love can be difficult at the best of times. I to hope she is the one... and it lasts forever, but nothing is forever is it?

Spiky Zora Jones said...

She sounds wonderful. I'm glad you are flying high again.

I love that she told you to bring your tooth brush.

Read to her your poems. They will bring out much emotion. The things you write touch a woman. I know...it had that effect on me. :D

Glad you are doing wonderfully and that love's fire still burns strong.

Ciao babe.

Indigo said...

Spiky~ yes I will read her my poems, that's a gr8 idea, I'm glad they had that effect on you, think they will have the same effect on 'J'? hope so... live for the moment, live the dream, that's all I want... to be loved

goooooood girl said...

Good good good......

Indigo said...

Gooood girl ~ thank you