Control

I've locked the door,
Turned out the light.
My world has been
turned upside down.
I got in a fight.
He knocked me down
from behind, my tears
stung as I thought I
was going blind.
I did my best. I
kept my nerve, but
he was too strong.
I felt some pain
again and again.
The taste of blood
flooded my mouth.
Coloured rainbows
stabbed my brain.
I felt something
sharp cutting
at my throat. I tried
and tried to escape.
This happened so
quick I felt
urge to be sick.
I never thought
this would happen
to me. I hit him
hard, he felt the
blow as he stumbled
he momentarily let
go. I held my breath
my heart pounding
in my chest. I ran
And I ran all the
way home. As I
sit here behind
my door I can feel
my whole body
Shake. I dare
not move. I dare
not speak, my
clothes are dirty
and torn......
I feel so weak.
I was afraid.
I let myself go,
I can smell the
pungent scent
of piss. I lost
my nerve..I
thought I'd lost
all my tomorrows.